How Could I Ever [SunSun] ✓

[18] Cute

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"...but damn is he handsy..."

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[Sunghoon]

Heesung and I decided to stay the night. We didn't wanna leave Sunoo after what happened earlier, so Riki and Heesung insisted on taking the living room, while we took the bedroom. It was a long argument, but we finally gave in.

I already took a shower, so I was waiting in bed for Sunoo. He didn't take long at all, and as soon as he walked in he threw himself onto me. "Hyungie~" he whined out and wrapped his arms around me. His pajamas are so cute, they have penguins on them.

"Yes Sunoo?" I asked him and wrapped my arms around him in return. He lifted his head a little and smiled at me. "What do you want?"

He smiled even wider, and it was the cutest thing. He pecked my lips, then did it again and again and again, giggling. He didn't even say anything either, so before he could do it again, I grabbed him and pulled him into an actual kiss. I think it caught him off guard because he hesitated when he kissed me back. But he seemed happy afterwards.

"Hyungie, I..." he looked away and sat up so he could look at me properly. His face flushed, and I'm sure mine did too. He still wouldn't look. "I'm sorry about earlier," he said quietly. He started to look sad again and finally looked at me.

I frowned and held one of his hands gently. "Sunny, I told you already that it's okay. Please stop apologizing... I trust you." I tried to talk to him in a softer, cuter tone so he'd feel better but it didn't seem to work. "Sunoo," I said his name sternly instead which got a bit of a reaction out of him. "I mean it."

He hesitated and started playing with my fingers. "W-well I didn't think you were ly-lying or something, I just still feel bad!" He blurted out in a panic. I didn't mean to get him all flustered, but damn is it cute.

I smiled at him. What am I gonna do when he acts like this all the time? I don't think I'll be able to take it. "Shh, you're overthinking everything now," I told him gently, but then had my idea. "Unless you need me to shut you up."

He tilted his head to the side, a confused look on his face. "Huh? I just don't want you to—"

I reached up and grabbed him by the back of his neck, harshly pulling him down into a kiss. This kiss is way different than the others, it's less of pure adoration and more of curiosity. We haven't figured each other out yet—emotionally maybe, but physically I have no clue. I was scared to go further than just kissing because what if he hates it? I just want him to be happy but—he's the one who bit my lip and... used tongue first. Not only that, but damn is he handsy. I don't think there was a place on my upper body that he didn't touch.

When he pulled away, I laid there in shock but also adoration, trying to catch my breath. Nothing really clicked until it did, and I realized that Sunoo just led the whole thing. He seems pretty... good at this? I don't have experience, I could never really go past small kissing because what always came to my mind was him.

"Was that okay?" He asked, plastering that cutely innocent smile on his face. "I won't do it again if you didn't—"

"It was... good." I turned my head away and felt my whole body heating up. This is so embarrassing, I mean, how can he ask me something like that with a straight face. Unless it's normal and I'm just new to this whole thing. I don't talk about my feelings often, so it's hard—not... it, but talking about my feelings. "I-I, um... uh I liked it..."

He turned my face to look at him, and I felt my throat close a little. I feel so nervous but excited at the same time. "You liked what?" He asked me seriously. He's calling the shots but he can barely take it either, he's blushing so hard that he might melt.

"You," I blurted out quietly. I feel like I could blow up right now, but the embarrassment isn't bad. It's weird. "But I'm sorry, I'm not that good at it."

He smiled so sweetly. "You're a fast learner so you'll be fine, it's not like you're terrible." He started playing with my hair a little and leaned closer to my face. "You wanna do it again?"

I nodded, "yeah, kind of," I said nervously. My voice was shaking a little, but he didn't care. He kissed me so gently, and it made me feel so warm. I love this, him, and everything we have now. I don't know if it'll last, but I want it to be the best it can because I'll never find anyone as good as him.

This time, I copied what he did and slipped my tongue in first. I peeked my eyes open to find him doing the same with his cheeks redder than ever. I never thought I'd see him like this. I think I got the hang of it pretty quick, and when I started taking the lead he got a little too excited. He got so embarrassed that he pushed me away and sat up too fast, hitting his head on the top bunk.

"Ouch, fuck—I'm so sorry!" He blurted out in a panic. He was so red I thought he was gonna explode, genuinely. "I didn't..." he quickly got up and out of bed. He pulled his shirt down and looked away to the side. "I have to um, pee. Bye!" He ran out of the room as quietly as he could, and I couldn't help but smile.

I sat up and looked down at myself. Great. I started feeling embarrassed all over again, but I tried to cool off. There's no way I'm doing anything in this room, especially not when Sunoo is gonna come back. I just have to get myself together—come on Sunghoon, you're better than this. You got this! You...

Fuck he's so cute.

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I'M BACK EVERYONE!! I FINISHED MY PARADES ^_^ i learned snare in a week, let's go! that was so much fun, and very out of my comfort zone considering i'm an orchestra kid. band is fun too! i don't think one is better than the other, but if i had to choose of course i'd stay with my beloved bass. love her and... i'm gonna be so sad when i can't play her anymore after i graduate this year :,]

anyways! i don't have band camp until beginning of August which is when school also starts again, but expect mad updates until then yippeee ^_^

i also started a TXT fic, it's Yeonjun x Beomgyu if you wanna check it out :]

There were once two boys who met in a cafe because of fate itself. They were everything each other needed, and that caused their love to bloom so strongly. They were each other's home, happiness, and every other thing that you could think of plus some more. Their story is so tragic, but so beautiful. It's almost as if their love was too strong that the world couldn't take it, that they couldn't take it. It could even make one wonder if love like that is really possible.

Learn the story of the two boys through the eyes of one of them; Beomgyu. As he pours his heart out empty onto these pages, he tells the world about the love he shared with his Yeonjun Hyung and how amazing it was. How beautiful their world was.