call it what you want

Chapter 46

Jackson

I'm about to lose my fucking mind because Ameeriah has been ignoring me for two days.
Adare told me that she hasn't even told her any details, just that Ameeriah doesn't wanna talk to me and I have no fucking idea what I did.

I look back at my phone at the texts I've sent her over the past two days.

Me You wanna watch a movie tonight
Me ?
Me Do you not wanna watch a movie?
Me Baby what's up
Me Is something wrong?
Me Meeriah can you please answer me
Me dude
Me Okay Ameeriah you're really starting to make me nervous what's up
Me Ameeriah
Me Can you talk to me?

Every time I've tried calling it goes to voicemail. Every time I text, I get no response. Every time I've been to her dorm, she either hasn't been there or she's just completely ignoring me whenever I knock.

She won't give me any room to even guess what I did wrong.
Is this her way of breaking up with me? Just like, fucking ghosting until I drop it?
Not a fucking chance.

My mind is spinning with all of the things that I could have done to upset her and I honestly can't think of anything.
I finally get sick of going into thought spirals in my room and decide to get up before I fucking pull my hair out.

I grab my keys and head out the door.
I don't know where she could possibly be, but I'm not coming home until I find her.

I first head to her dorm. Knock a couple of times with no response and so I decide so go around campus to see if I can find her.
If all else fails, then I'll sleep outside her fucking door until she comes back.

I check all the libraries on main campus.
Every single floor and every single corner.
Not a sight of her.

Then I head to the physical education center where she takes her Pilates class.
Not there either.

I go to every cafe and diner on campus. Nope and nope.
Once I leave the last cafe on campus, I notice it get dark and gray outside. It's about to rain.

Finally, I go to all four of the dining halls on campus and not a fucking sight of her.

It's been almost 3 hours and I haven't eaten at all today and am suddenly aware of the growling of my stomach.
I decide to call it quits for now and grab something to eat before I find her.
I head to North parking lot where my apartment is and hop in my car.

As soon as I start my car, I see a few rain droplets on the windshield before I pull out of the lot and start driving to Chipotle.
I get onto the road and drive for a minute before the rain droplets that were more sporadic, start to flow at a constant rate.

As I'm driving, I'm passing up the edge of West campus when I see someone walking in the grass with a dark red backpack that looks like Ameeriahs.

The rain sprinkling is starting to get a little heavier.
As I drive up closer and slow down, I see the back of Ameeriah's hair.
Fucking finally.

By the time I get my car beside her, the rain is pouring now.
I roll down my window and see the rain coming into the side of my car. It's dark and gray outside and this rain looks like it's about to get even worse.

"Ameeriah get in the car!" I shout so that she can hear me over the rain.
She turns her head abruptly to look at me. "What are you doing?"

"I've been trying to talk to you for fucking days now," I exclaim with wide eyes cause what the fuck else would I be doing?