Complicated

Chapter 21

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When lunch comes around I'm about ready to just fuck it and head home. Usually, I'm not the type to skip school, but when your day consists of rumors and whispers, you'll know what I mean.

I hurriedly grab my lunch before heading to the cafeteria where all my friends are already sitting, when I step foot through the cafeteria doors I feel all eyes on me.

I nervously tuck a piece of hair behind my ear before lowering my eyes to the floor and walking over to the table.

I give them a small smile before taking a seat next to Brad. Brad wraps his arm around my shoulders and pushes my body closer to his.

"It'll all be okay," he whispers, and for a second I don't think he's talking to me until I look up and his eyes are staring intently at me.

I give him an assuring smile before attacking my sandwich, and then there's an interruption. If you have no clue what kind of interruption, you're about to find out.

"Excuse me!" Chanel stands up on one of the lunch tables, which I don't see how she did with those stilettos on. "I wanted to make an announcement."

The girls stare up at her in envy while the guys keep their eyes trailed over her body and keeping them on her fake boobs longer than necessary.

"We've all come to know the new slut in the school, right? Well, everyone give it up for, Bella Duffy!" My eyes go wide when she looks me square in the eyes and smirks at me.

"Slut!"

"Whore!"

"Prostitute!"

"Dick sucker!" I don't even know.

Everyone is pumping their fists in the air and screaming out insults while I sit there in shock, trying to comprehend how this happened.

I think maybe Devon will get them to stop, but when I see him sitting at his lunch table, he's texting on his phone, not even caring.

I feel the tears sting the back of my eyes and I abruptly get out of my seat, letting Brad's arm fall to his side, and half run half trip to the door.

By now the tears are flowing freely down my face as the name calling begins to fade into the distance, but I will always remember the words. The hurtful words they called me. They don't even know the full story, but I guess that's High School for you.

People that have nothing better to do than to make other people's lives a living hell and watch them crumble right before their very eyes. It's cruel.

I run past people in the hallway who are either walking to the cafeteria still or to the library, and find my locker.

I grab all the things I think I'll need and slam the door shut before heading back to the front of the school. Then something stops me.

"Bella!" I stop right in my tracks and slowly turn around to come face to face with Gavin who is a few feet away from me.

"What do you want?" I snap, fiercely wiping the tears away from my eyes so he doesn't see just how much this has all effected me.

"I-I-" great, he can't even get the words out! He scratches the back of his neck nervously.

"You what, Gavin?" I spit out harshly. If he came after me just to tell me how big a slut I am, then I really don't have the time or patience to hear it.

"I'm sorry about...Chanel." Thats what he came to say? What the hell?

"Yeah," I mutter and start to walk towards the door, until Gavin grips my elbow and turns me around to face him, pushing me back until I meet the lockers. They make a loud clanking sound as my back hits the metal.

"Look, Bella, I'm sorry, okay?" Gavin sighs, his grip on my arm still as tight as ever.

"What are you sorry for? It's not like we were dating, it's not like you wanted to date a slut like me-" I don't finish because Gavin smashes his lips to mine with so much force it hurts.

I'm not exactly sure what to do in this situation, I've only kissed one other guy and that was Gavin's brother. You can think about how awkward this must be.

Gavin begins to get a little aggravated due to my lack of response and pins my arms down by my side, trying to move his lips harder with mine, but I can feel something in my stomach telling me it's not right. That I need to stop him.

"Kiss me, Goddammit," Gavin growls against my lips and when he goes in for another kiss I turn my head, he seems to take the hint because he lets go of my arms and backs away. His deep green eyes show hurt, maybe even rejection, but that's not my intentions.

"Why'd you do that?" I question confused as to what possessed him to do that, I touch my fingers to my bruised lips and tears prickle my eyes again.

"I-I'm not really sure," he sighs and places his face in his hands before groaning and looking back up at me, his eyes are burning with something that I can't quite put my finger on. And it's bugging me.

"I need to go," I say and start to walk away, I look over my shoulder and see Gavin still looking at me with his eyebrows furrowed. He looks sad. And I feel guilty.

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"I don't know why, but my hands are shaking I can see you coming and I stand here waiting!" I sing along to Bea Miller. "'Cause your a force of nature, look at what you've done, I can taste the danger, but I don't want to run so hold me to the ground and I won't put up a fight, I'm a caution taker, but baby you're a force of nature!"

This is pretty much all I've been doing since I came home early from school...two hours ago.

Music always calms me down, and singing along with it clears my head. I'm trying to drown out the confusion of my brother not sticking up for me and then the surprise kiss from Gavin.

I feel something in the pit of my stomach saying that I need to go talk to Gavin, to clear things up, but then I have that other part saying that I should just leave it alone.

The thing is, if I wouldn't have gone on that date with Gavin, Devon wouldn't be mad at me. If I hadn't kissed Richard, Gavin wouldn't be mad at me. And Richard wouldn't have ended whatever it was that was going on between us.

I feel like I should just forget about it, to just stick with my friends and not deal about what Gavin or Richard, or even my own brother, Devon, thinks. One choice turned into this, and I desperately wish that I never made that choice.

At the time I didn't think I had a choice, but I did, and I wish I used it.

"Tell me, Bella, how do I really make you feel?" Gavin growls lowly in my ear, sending shivers of pleasure up my body.

I shake my head to his request and he presses my back into the brick wall, letting his hardened groin push into my lower stomach, making me throw my head back against the wall and let out a gasp, my eyes wide.

"I know I make you feel something, tell me what it is that I make you feel." he says again. "Love? Lust? Pleasure? Or an undying need for me...sexually?"

"Please..." I beg, I don't know what I'm begging for.

"Say it," his husky voice whispers in my left ear.

"I want you..."

So if you are confused, that was a dream, just so you know. Lmao. Anyways home you like it and give me some feedback!

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