I'm here,
But I'm not here.
I'm home alone, I don't mind
There's already so much on my mind
So much holding on, I need to let go
I want to just... DisconnectI'm tired, I'm lazy, I procrastinate
But I do my best to finish the tasks
I beat myself up in my head
Why can't I just... Disconnect?I sit to have breakfast at the table
I'm watching a video on my phone
Two minutes in and I'm already out
I don't intend to, but I... DisconnectThere's a fog inside my brain
The light filters onto my pain
I search for the shadows, but all in vain
So I sit, stare and just... DisconnectI feel the world around me
My body still moves, I'm still alive
I'm still eating, I'm still watching
But somehow, I just... DisconnectI'm here,
But I'm not here.
There's so much I have to do
Too many things to think about
I don't want to think no more
So I automatically... DisconnectI listen to music just for the sound
Silence is my worst enemy
But at times, the songs aren't friendly
I can't help but... DisconnectEverything is in a haze
It's all just a passing craze
Oh how I wish this was a phase
But it's not, and I still... DisconnectI'll be back, I promise, just give me a while
I'll clear out the fog and bring back my smile
But I guess this is goodbye, for now,
Until when my brain won't... DisconnectI get so scared because I don't know what's happening
I know I'm still there somewhere, but where the peace that you're preaching?
I know nothing because there's nobody teaching
So in the end, I just sit, stare, and...Disconnect.
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The Darkness Within: Vol. 4
PoetryThird notebook, third book. This is where it gets real. Warning: Not for the faint of heart. Just kidding lmaooo (Or am I??) But yeah anyways, here we go on our third (unofficially fourth) rollercoaster ride! It will be undergoing some edits soon. A...