The Darkness Within: Vol. 4

Mermaid

Sad eyes upon my face
I am desperate not to cry
I need peace within my mind
I can't find it, though I try

Take a breath, heave a sigh
I do not know anymore
What's happening? What's grieving me?
I do not know where to go

I have battled for so many years
Yet I still don't know my fears
And now your crying I do hear
I wish I could cry your tears

What I feel I cannot name
And I know I can't control
But it feels more blue than grey
Do I know what that means at all?

I just feel sad, and it feels bad
And I'm just done with everything
But I'm still here and I still live
And my own song yet to sing

But I'm stuck here feeling blue
I feel cold and so alone
Why I'm like this I've no clue
I feel soaked to the bone

I feel like I should cry right now
If only it would make things better
But even if I did, it might not work
And I'd only be a lot wetter

I suffer a lot for I have no tears
I cannot cry, can't shed a tear
I can't cry from emotion
Though I wail and scream and moan

So I'm stuck here with no clue
Of where to go, nor what to do
So I'll be sad, I will feel blue
All on my own, as I'm meant to

I don't know what to do anymore
I feel lost even though I'm found
I'm a soul that's lost his way
Whose feet I fear are not on the ground

I feel like the rain on a cold day
Hitting gently against the glass
Where I stand by the window pane
Still as a statue made of brass

I suffer in quietness without a tear
But do I really suffer? Is all this real?
No, what I feel is more blue than grey
So I'll pack my bags and be on my way.

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"But a mermaid has no tears, and therefore she suffers so much more."