My long legs carry me away from him not wanting to see the look of my betrayal painted across his face any longer. I take my place back at the breakfast table, forgetting there is actual other people still there. I'm oblivious to my surroundings only able to focus on my heart shattering in my chest, the fragile pieces falling down my body.
"What just happened?" asks Bill
"What? Oh, nothing we just talked about how we miss how life used to be." i make up some bullshit excuse, trying to seem inconspicuous but in all reality i feel like throwing up and i'm worried my face shows the truth. I try to take a drink of my orange juice but bring my hand back down hiding it when i realize how violently it's shaking.
Tom sits next to Mia throwing his arm around her shoulders, his breathing seems to have calmed now. I'm slightly surprised at how well he seems to be hiding how broken he is, must not be as torn up about it as i am. She snuggles her soft blonde hair into his side, i'm happy for her i try to remind myself. I notice a sharp pain in my palms, realizing i am digging my nails into them as i rage silently with jealousy. I told him to be with her so he can get over what we had, but it still doesn't make his affection towards her sting any less.
I try to swallow the spit in my mouth but the bitter taste from my spiteful words still linger. I. Hate. You... What he doesn't know was i was really talking to myself. I hate myself for feeling this way. I hate myself for ever acting upon my thoughts. I hate myself for coming in between a bond as strong as brothers. If the truth were ever to come to the light, i may have very well ruined their connection. I honestly don't think could hate either of the twins, i'm too deeply connected to the both of them but i'm terrified that they could hate me.
"We better hit the road, we could hit NC by tomorrow at this rate." Zeke calls out already leaving us behind at the table
"NC?" asks Mia with a peculiar look on her face
"North Carolina." I say almost belittling her for not understanding. And just like that all the resentment i once felt for her comes rushing back, it was because of Tom after all. As soon as i felt him back away from her, all my adverse feelings for her subsided. At the first moment of me sensing he was no longer mine, the emotions all came running back. I'm jealous over a boy that can't even be mine.
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The Chosen.
FanfictionAfter a traumatic experience her senior year of high school and a very unsuccessful freshman year of college, June is determined to make her sophomore year the best one yet. Her eccentric and personable roommate Sloane pulls June from the comfort of...
