The Chosen.

Brothers

I haven't been able to even bring myself to look at Bill, all damn day. Which, i don't think he minds or even notices for the most part. It should be pretty easy to ignore him from here on out.

Jesus Christ. I can't believe i fucking thought of his name last night while kissing Tom. It had just been so long since i had seen him and the emotions just came pouring back and i- Stop it June. Shut the hell up.

It's beginning to feel like deja vu, it all feel so similar to when i was torn between loving the twins. Though i'm sure Bill will never feel the same about me, it's becoming hard to fight the emotions that one held me so closely to him.

I just need to devote myself and my time to Tom and getting the hell out of the place. Now that Bill has no memory of the loyalty i once owed him, it should be easier than it once was to leave him alone...right?

My throat tightens as i notice Bill has decided to join us for dinner today and sits down on the opposite end of the table next to Mia. He smiles timidly at the group, hoping to have our acceptance as he takes his seat.

Our eyes briefly connect before i quickly pull mine away.

"Hey, i do that." He smiles as he points to Tom as he mixes his mustard and ketchup together with a french fry. Tom's eyes beam of hope as he looks up towards his brother.

"Didn't your guys dad do that too?" Mia asks Tom.

"Yeah, when we were little. Surprised you remember that Mi." He looks down at the swirled condiments on the plate.

"Who's dad?" Asks Bill

The room falls silent.

"Uhh, mine and yours." Tom answers as he becomes serious. He coughs, choking back what i assume is emotion.

Bill examines the rest of our expressions as he attempts to process what Tom just told him. He stops chewing the french fry in his mouth, his eyes fall to his own plate of ketchup and mustard.

"You and i are... brothers?" He asks quietly never looking up from his plate.

"Twins." Mia whispers next to Bill as she looks at him compassionately, ready to be there at any moment if he is to need someone.

Bill places his hand over his mouth as he looks to Tom, his expression holds nothing but longing... longing for answers. His eyes trace over every single one of Tom's features as he realizes they are the same as his own. He sighs a small breath of what i think is... relief.

"I'm sorry. I don't remember anything before this..." he explains as he raises from the table. I think this has all been too much for him. His eyes dart around the room as his thoughts swim around his head.

He knocks silverware from the table, sending it to the floor in a clatter. His hands brace out in front of him as he is startled from the loud noise. He looks up to find the rest of us staring at him.

"I'm sorry." He mutters before quickly walking away to his room, slamming the door shut behind him.

"oh." Mia says as the echo of the door rings out through the pod. Our gazes once again turn to one another. I hate to even think this but i'm kind of glad he went back to his room, easier for me to not think about him.

"Well, that was shit show." Zeke says as he drops his fork against his plate. Tom sighs deeply as his gaze stays plastered to his brothers door.

I place my hand on his back, dragging it around as i soothingly brush against it. He looks to me as i purse my lips, saying i'm sorry with out really having to. Placing a kiss on his shoulder, i look deeply into his eyes and start to feel my heart ache for the boy i love so deeply.

Whenever he hurts, i hurt. That's how it's always been, even before we were even together. I remember when he was so hurt over the fact that i continuously pushed him away. Pain ached throughout my chest every day, not because i too longed for him but because i know how terribly he hurt.

"I feel bad for him, he must be scared out of his mind not being able to remember a thing before waking up." Mia says reminding me just how compassionate and caring she is for others.

Me on the other hand, had really only been thinking about how difficult it was for me to see him again. I shake my head slightly realizing i've been selfish yet again only taking my own feelings into consideration.

"Time for your pills!" Valerie says cheerfully as she enters through the door.

One by one we all take our vitamins and sit back down at the table that still holds the remnants of our dinner.

"Bill, time for vitamins!" she calls out to him.

She waits for a few more seconds anticipating his door to open at any moment but looks to us when it stays shut in place. "He's upset, you can leave them here if you want." i mention.

"sure" she smiles softly seemingly feeling for Bill. "just make sure he takes them, will you?" she asks me.

"Yeah." i smile back, knowing damn well i'm just going to let him throw them in the trash as he did last night. Valerie nods her head and ducks out of the room once more leaving our group with our thoughts.