The Chosen.

Escaping Purgatory

I'm awoken to my love shaking my shoulder demanding my attention. He seems to be much better today already. His eyes melt in to mine for which i am so grateful. Last night he refused to look any of us in the eyes and i was starting to miss what it felt like to be gazed upon by him. The traces of black eyeliner stain his still swollen face, my hand runs down his cheek trying to smudge it away. He smiles timidly at me, surrendering himself to my touch.

"There's that boy i missed." i say with morning still stuck in my voice. Even though he doesn't say it, i know for a fact he missed me too by the way he pulls my hips into him. He takes me by surprise and i let out a little "Bill" at how aggressive he grabs me. Burying his head in the crook of my neck, i feel him push his lips into my skin. Sending chills down my back, his tongue slips from his mouth and wetly caresses me. The bare skin of his chest makes me reminisce of me losing my virginity to him and i can't help but to want for more. I realize i can now feel why he's pawing at me so forcefully this morning, and the reason is poking me in my stomach.

Something heavy is dropped on the tile floor across the room a ways and Bill begrudgingly lets go from his firm grasp around my waist. With a groan he peaks his eyes over the covers to look around before whispering to me

"I'll deal with you later." he softly plants a kiss on my lips, lifting his half naked body from our bed. He must have taken his shirt off last night sometime... and i'm not mad about it.

I go to the bathroom with Mia and i can just feel the tension exuding from Tom. I can feel him begging for me, for my touch. I refuse to give in, i won't even allow myself to look in his direction.

"Are you and Tom mad at each other?" she asks from the stall over from me. I bite my lip wanting so badly to be able to tell someone the truth of everything i feel. But i know telling Mia would only crush her, i see the way she adores Tom.

"No why?"

"Idk... you both seem off."

"A lot happened last night Mia. We're both worried about Bill." I rub my temples slowly with my hands, realizing i'm gaslighting her. God i'm such a horrible fucking person, i deserve everything bad that comes to me.

"Yeah... I've been thinking a lot about it... Do you think we should still go to New York?"

"I mean where else would we go? Just stay in this shopping mall purgatory for the rest of our sad, pathetic lives?"

"Or we could go to the center where they study near death experiences in North Carolina." I burst from my stall rounding the corner to rip hers open, she stands there startled.

"The what?"

"It's like an international organization that studies NDEs, it's in Durham."

"MIA!!!!" I grip her hand in mine, dragging her little body behind me to find the rest of our group

"Tell them." i demand

"Uh, theres a place in North Carolina that studies near death experiences."

"We need to go!!" i yell out at the astounded looks on the boys faces

"Oh my god Mia, you may have just solved this." Bill says raising his shaking hand to his face.

"Tom, help me pack the car." Zeke says firmly as he flings himself out of bed and throws on his clothes and shoes.