The Chosen.

Could Have Been.

Reemerging from the shadows, i notice nothing has changed. Bill hasn't moved, Mia stays in her slumber, and Zeke sits on guard duty. I peak behind me instinctually to catch a glimpse of Tom, but he isn't following me. Catching my eyes, Zeke whispers to me

"You can't do that to Bill."

"I know. I'm not." i say bitterly under my breath. I hate admitting to myself what i feel about Tom. I'll be damned if i'm going to say it out loud to fucking Zeke.

"Where were you today when Bill was attacked?"

"Are you fucking kidding me Z?" i spit at him. My face turns hot with anger, how dare he question me... But he's right.

"I'm just saying June. Just pointing out what it looks like." his expression seems innocent, i hope thats really all it is. I can't afford to lose Bill, he means everything to me. I really hope he decides to keep this just between us, i know the world is already ending or whatever but to lose Bill i think the earth would stop spinning for me.

"Stay out of it. i have it handled." I whisper as i see Tom dragging his feet into the room. My heart sinks down in my chest cavity, he's been crying. His eyelashes are darker, soaked with his tears. Trying to hide his bright red cheeks he looks at the ground lowering his hat. Has he really been crying... for me? I honestly thought all he felt for me was lust, purely physical. I know the feelings i bury deep down inside myself for him are genuine but i never thought his to be the same. Zeke throws me a glance and I flip my middle finger at him, i've had enough of his nosiness. I see a little grin spread on his lips as he rises strolls over to his bed and crawls in.

I refuse to look at Tom again tonight, i can't find myself in his grasp any longer. I promise myself to never be alone with him again as i can't control my temptations when no one is around us. Rolling over, i lay my arm across Bill, who stays fast asleep. My head hits the pillow allowing a few tears to escape for the thought of what Tom and i could have been. Pulling myself together i wipe my damp blue eyes with my sleeve and close my eyes drifting off to sleep.