The Chosen.

Get Your Shit Together

"June, i want to take you in the sun today." Whispers Mia as she climbs under the covers wrapping her little arms around me. Her embrace has kept me going these past few days, i don't know what i would have done with out it.

"No." i whisper back, i know it's time i just can't bring myself to resume life with out him. I'm perfectly content in my depression rotting bed rest.

"I'm not asking." she says sternly pecking a kiss on my forehead. Next thing i know, the curtains are drawn back to reveal the sunrise. I let out a hiss like a vampire shriveling in the sunlight. My feet feel like weights as i trudge to the out door patio where our group once shared memories and laughter.

I hate to admit it but the sun burning against my frail skin almost feels rejuvenating. I feel incredibly guilty for being able to feel relief when my boyfriend lays dead in a hole right there off the concrete. Exhausted from the walk, i lie down on Bill and I's lounge chair curling up in a ball once again. My eyes trail to the mound of dirt where my heart lies at rest.

"Good. You got her up." Zeke says strolling up with Tom following tentatively behind him. Tom looks as if he just got in trouble, like a little kid being walked to the principals office. I can't help but to wonder what those two were just talking about.

"How are you feeling?" he asks me petting the top of my head.

"Like i want to die a little bit less." i murmur trying to appease them so i can go back to my reclusion.

"Hey!! We're getting somewhere!" he throws his hands up excitedly like he's talking to a child, which for the record makes me want to hurl again.

"Okay, June, we think it's time to go to Durham. This thing... we can't let it take another one of us." 

"I'm not leaving Bill."

"It's been a week, we have to go. I'm sorry you're grieving and i get it, i really do but-" he starts but i quickly interrupt him, refusing to even hear his side of things.

"You don't fucking get it Zeke." i spit at him bitterly. My mind spinning at him telling me it's been a week, i was so grief stricken i hadn't realized it had been that long. A whole week with out my precious Bill.

"Yes i do June, i've lost too."

"Not your soulmate, the love of your fucking life dying in your arms!" i scream at him, the tears i haven't seen in a day or two reappearing.

"Yeah, well Sarah is fucking dead too. You have to let him go." he doesn't back down. I'm taken back, he talked about Sarah like she would be waiting for us when we fix the world.

"Zeke-"

"I'll give you a few more days if you need, but we are leaving with or with out you. I'm not losing Mia or Tom because you are too stubborn to move on." He walks away from me removing himself from the conversation.

"We're not leaving her!" Tom yells at him, defending me. Our collective gaze meeting him in shock before Zeke and i meet again

"A week max, get your shit together June." he spits at me, I really hate to admit it but he's fucking right. I've done my share of falling apart, now it's time to pull myself together and save the world, for Bill.