Mafia's Girl

Part 39

Shehnaaz's P.O.V. 

I turned to a devastated Aditya as tears formed in his eyes. "I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't know this would have happened. I am very sorry Aditya. But, I can't imagine myself being without Sidharth. He's everything to me. Please, forgive me. I didn't want to hurt you like this," I said. He fell back as he sat on his feet with his eyes holding one place on the floor. I felt guilty for his state. "Say something, please," I said, shaking his arm. He looked at me and smiled a small bit. Resting his hand on my head, he said, "I hope you find your happiness in him. Don't do him what you did to me." He stood up and I followed. Looking at me with red eyes, he said, "I had an idea that this could have been possible but I thought if I propose to you and make you mine, I would have you forever. I know how much you dream about getting married and regaining your lost respect in your father's eyes. I hope, Sidharth fulfills that. Be happy." "Aditya...." I started but he left the house before I could speak, wiping away his tears. "I'm sorry," I said, softly as I looked at him leaving. I ran up the stairs like a mad woman to Sidharth and bounced into Daksh leaving the room. He looked at me with a long, disappointed face. "What have you come here for? And where is Aditya?" He asked. "He left," I said. "Congratulations on your engagement," he said, indifferently, "Now just do Sidharth a favour and leave him alone. He's in a lot of pain right now. He is leaving in a few days anyways so you don't have to always come behind him." "What is wrong? Why are you speaking to me like this?" I asked, hurt by his words and tone, "And where is Sidharth going?" "No one knows. Not even me. He just wants to go away from you and he is leaving everything and everyone behind," he said. "I want to meet him," I said, trying to enter the room. He blocked me saying, "It's best if you don't. Besides, he is asleep." 

"I will just look at him from afar and leave," I said. "No! Why do you want to meet him?" He asked. "Because I..." I started but stopped. Sidharth deserves to know before anyone else about my love. I can't take that right away from him. "You will find out everything eventually. Just please let me see him," I said, pleading. "He doesn't want to see you. Please, just leave him alone. Atleast for tonight," he said. I looked at him with my blurred vision due to my tears as I stepped back. I went to my room quietly, hurting at everything he said. Sidharth was leaving because of me? He doesn't want to see me? This hurt me to the core of my heart. I didn't want to think about spending life without Sidharth and he doesn't want to stay with me. I cried my heart out in my room until my eyes hurt. Even then, I didn't stop. I don't want to go away from him.

Daksh's P.O.V. 

I deliberately said all of those hurtful things to Shehnaaz so that she comes to the realisation that she loves Sidharth. Sidharth would never come forward and confess to her that he loves her but she can make the first move and he will accept her love. I have seen love for each other in their eyes but neither of them wants to accept it and profess. Shehnaaz is never the same around Aditya as she is when she is with Sidharth. I have seen the difference. Even today when he was on one knee proposing to her, she had no happiness or excitement in her eyes. Rather, she was ready to leave him to come to Sidharth. Why can't they see what I see? Only Shehnaaz can save Sidharth now and he needs her more than ever. I placed the fear of him going away in her and now, it's her time to take action and stop him. 

Shehnaaz's P.O.V. 

I had enough of crying now. My anxiety thinking about Sidharth was getting out of control and I had to meet him, come what may. I got up and ran to his room with no one to stop me this time. I tried opening the door but it was locked. I cursed my luck as I thought of another way to see him. I went downstairs and to the poolside. I looked up at his bedroom window which was, fortunately, open. Wiping away the remnants of my tears from my cheeks, I looked around and spotted a ladder nearby. I lifted it and brought it back to his window and made my way up. Reaching up, I climbed through the window and looked at him, sprawled all out on his bed and sleeping soundly. I looked at him for a few minutes before I made my way onto his bed. Taking his head on my lap, I caressed his cheek as my tears began to flow freely once more. These were tears of relief though as I knew now that he was safe and sound. He took me aback as he snuggled his face on my lap and wrapped his arms around my waist, trapping me. "I love you, Sidharth!" I confessed to his sleeping self, "You cannot go anywhere and leave me behind. I won't allow you to. You are mine and I belong only with you. I promise you, I will fight against the entire world for you but I will never leave your side. You are my reason to stay alive. I love you." I bent down to him and kissed his temple as I finally found back my peace. "When you wake up tomorrow morning, you will get all the love you can ever ask for. Love that is never ending. Just hang on for tonight. Tomorrow, I will tell you again how much I love you," I said. I took a deep breath and sighed as I stopped crying. I simply looked at him and ran my fingers through his hair as he slept on my lap until I fell asleep. The only hope lighting my mind was that tomorrow come fast and the day is magical when Sidharth and I become one finally.

Sidharth's P.O.V. 

Images flashed before my eyes of Shehnaaz and Aditya together as he was proposing to her. I opened my eyes at once and the sun was already coming up. I moved my eyes around, looking at my room and realised something strangely different. Realising that I was on someone's lap, I quickly looked up and saw Shehnaaz, sitting on my bed as I slept on her lap. My eyes widened as I quickly got up, disturbing her sleep as well. She looked around at first, a bit confused but smiled as her eyes reached me. Standing on her knees, she cupped my face saying, "You're awake!" She quickly wrapped her arms around me, hugging me tightly as I was left confused. Was I dreaming or was Aditya really proposing to her yesterday? She broke the hug and looked at me with tears in her eyes. My head hurt badly as I had a nasty hangover. I remembered drinking at the casino and coming home with Daksh to Aditya proposing to her. I wasn't dreaming. I quickly removed her hands off my body and looked away from her. I didn't want to be with anyone else's fiancé. "What are you doing here?" I asked, coldly. "I was here the entire night with you," she said. "Are you insane?" I asked, gritting my teeth, "Last night you got engaged to Aditya and you spent the night in my room, on my bed?" She frowned, shaking her head. "Don't you respect yourself, Aditya and your relationship?" I asked. "Sidharth....." she started but I really didn't want to hear anything. "Shut up!" I yelled. She flinched. Holding onto her shoulders aggressively, I continued, "What do you think I am? You love Aditya! You are engaged to him! You are going to spend your life with him and spending the night with me? How disgusting!" She looked at me silently as tears dropped one by one from her eyes. "Please, just listen to me for once," she said. 

"I don't want to hear anything. I don't care anymore," I said, getting off the bed. She crawled behind me and held onto me, stopping me. Holding onto my collar, she said with more anger in her eyes now, "You really think I am disgusting, don't you? You think I am in love with Aditya? You think I am some cheap girl who would just share a bed with anyone, don't you?" My heart broke at her questions. "You're wrong!" She yelled, "Absolutely wrong! I don't love Aditya! I am not engaged to anyone! Do you know why? Because I love you!" I felt as if the ground beneath my feet was pulled away from me. The shock left me speechless and weak. "I love you! I love you! I love YOU!" She said, sobbing, "Why don't you see that you mean the entire world to me? Why do you think I don't regret the slightest kissing you, getting close to you? Why do you think I can lay my life for you without a single thought? You are my world, Sidharth. I cannot, I don't want to imagine my life without you. You are my reason to live, to remain alive, to be strong, to be happy." She wiped away her tears and cupped my face as I stood like a statue and listened to her, unable to believe that this is true and happening. "When you are not around, I don't enjoy anything. You are the only person I trust blindly. I cannot live without you anymore. I really do love you," she said, hugging me tightly once more. I was at a strange junction now. I love her, I dreamt of this moment ever since I have known her but never kept the desire of it coming true. I love her more than she loves me perhaps. However, my biggest fear was and still is her safety. I am not her and her father's best or first choice. I want to hug her and keep her in my arms for the rest of my life but I still didn't know if that was the right thing to do. Perhaps, she is just overwhelmed with emotions for the care I showed her before and thinks she loves me. 

These thoughts ran through my head and left my body numbed as I couldn't move a single muscle to react. "I love you Sidharth Shukla. I love you," she said in my ear. If I reacted in anger, I would hurt her once more. Maybe I should give her some time to rethink about all of this. I held her arms and released them from around me. She sobbed gently between her hiccups. I wiped away her tears and cupped her face. "Relax. Stop crying," I said. "I...." she started but I placed my finger on her lips, making her quiet. "Your court case is this morning, go and get ready, we will talk about this later," I said. Her face physically dropped as she looked disappointed. "You aren't going to tell me anything?" She asked, getting off the bed, holding onto my elbows, "Sidharth, answer me. I confessed my love to you. You aren't going to say anything to me?" "I told you, don't worry. Go and get ready," I said, removing her hands from me. She frowned and stepped back. "I have nothing more to say," she said, wiping away her tears, confidently, "And don't think that I am going to regret telling you this. I love you and I am not sorry about it. Now, I don't have anything else to say to you. You will only speak to me too when you have a response ready for me. Be it a yes or a no, tell me straightforwardly. But you love me, you can't deny that fact and you most definitely cannot hide it from me." She left the room with her words ringing in my ears still.

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