Early Bird (Erkenci Kus)(Part 3)

61. Missing you is hard to do

"I can't believe a man like Mr Can is in this mess."

"This is definitely going to affect us negatively."

"I hear Mr McKinnon might refuse to keep working with us."

Sanem stood against the wall listening to the different conversations on the other side of the wall. Her eyes were closed and her heart pounding in her ears.

"Don't say that," someone whispers, the voice passing close to her.

"What, it's true, look at the state he's in. Where did Mr Fabbri even come from?"

"Sanem brought him in here. She's the reason for all of this."

Sanem's eyes fly open, her throat constricting, her hands fisting her dress at her sides as Dilara, Umut and Kila pass her, their voices lowering.

"How was she supposed to know?"

New voices break into her ears from the other side.

"I say let her give him this damn perfume or whatever this is about and get it over with."

"Yeah, what could be so special that they have to fight over it?"

"I'm sure she has a reason for not giving it to Mr Fabbri."

Sanem pushes off the wall, unable to listen to any more. The only reason she wasn't giving Fabbri the perfume was because Can didn't want her to. She had no other valid reason. And everything they were saying was slowly piling onto her like rocks. She needed to get some air.

"Sanem?"

Sanem stops at Guliz's voice. She had been the last to speak. Guess I wasn't as hidden as I hoped...

"Sanem, where are you going?"

Sanem starts walking again, Guliz jogging after her.

"Any more news?"

"No," Sanem stops again and shakes her head, fixing her face to hide that she was devastated inside. "Nothing yet. I'm going to the archive room. I want to have a look at the old campaigns, maybe we can recycle something for the new ones."

"I - "

Sanem doesn't give Guliz time to finish, instead speeding up to get away from her and everyone she could feel staring at her.

Walking into the archive room, Sanem stops in the doorway, her eyes on the wall of cabinets.

Sanem closes her eyes where she stands, feeling his breath against her face even now after he made her think he was going to kiss her. Our stupid war of wills...We lost so much time together playing around...
She wipes her face with her hands and shakes her head, shaking away the memory and the tears starting to form remembering him so close to her. She hasn't spent a day without at least seeing him once since she met him, what if he has to stay in jail? Would she ever see him again? She wouldn't be able to handle that.

She walks to her desk, looking around the room as she does. Her eye catch the camera in the top corner and another memory floods her vision and she's lost in their last encounter in here.

As the memory fades again, Sanem is clutching her amber necklace. Why was I so scared of being with him? God, if he comes out of that jail cell I am never going to be scared again. She sniffs and wipes under her eyes.

This all truly was her fault. He was so free and happy and she came and messed everything up. Like always. She's the one that brought Fabbri into their lives again. She's made the perfume that started all of this.