Never Again: The Ambiguous Ending (Tres Patroncitas #3)

CAPITULO 20

CLAZZO

It's been three months have passed since what happened in davao, I'm currently in my office here in Wagon, fixing some files and emails.

"Hey, how are you?" Bungad ni Ely pagpasok sa office ko.

Mukhang siya naman na ang tapos sa ginagawa kaya dumadalaw dito, "I'm fine... I'm just having a maybe small problem in my company." I replied.

"What's up?" She sat on the chair in front of my desk.

I opened my laptop as I show her the problem, ang problema kasi ay hindi talaga malutas-lutas ng boards or even the committee! Kahit ako ay naiistress na.

"Bakit gano'n... May malaki pa ang expenses niyo kesa sa profit, pero karamihan sa expenses ay hindi recorded, did you check the credit accounts? how bout the debit accounts on your bank reconciliation record?" Tanong niya.

"It was all recorded, but still, ayan pa rin ang kinalabasan, hindi ko na nga alam kung paanong investigation na gagawin ko, kabilaan ang iniinvestigate ko." Mahabang tuwiran ko.

I've been stressing myself lately because of these stupid investigations. First, investigation about my parents' death, next is fraudulent mysterious problem in my company, and last is the unknown expenses of our company!

"Something is not right, Tifanie." Ely said.

"I know, I'm trying to find an answer, okay? I just has a lot of things on my plate right now but I promise, I will find them." I replied.

"How's Nyx?" Sunod kong tanong.

Nyx is her first daughter, though, not biologically because apparently, Nyx is an adopted daughter of Ely, we adopted her from his bastard and useless father when they were ordered to burn down the one of the properties of Wagon Empire.

"She's doing fine, I always make sure she'll be doing fine. Malapit na rin operation niya sa USA kaya mas inaalagaan ko." She replied.

She's talking about an eye transplant of ger daughter; Nyx. She wanted to keep Nyx from everyone because we're in a mafia, she wants to keep them from our enemies that might kill her daughter.

"Cool," I replied.

"May balak ka bang mag anak in the future, Tifanie?" Tanong ni Ely nang nakakunot ang noo.

Hindi na ata talaga maiiwasan ang ganiyang tanong kapag nasa mid twenties na, 'ready to settle down' na ang usapan. Rhyle had already been married with Faughn, Ely is already a mother of Nyx.

Pilit kong inisip ang tanong niya, may balak nga ba talaga akong maging ina in the future just like Ely? Or to married a man just like Rhyle? The answer is no.

How could I love someone again kung alam kong may mission pa ako na dapat iacomplish na mula pa sa past? My heart is still unavailable for anyone to come in. Ayaw ko namang pilitin ang sarili ko sa taong alam kong pwede ko ring masaktan sa dulo.

"I still can't love someone for now, Ely. Sa pag aanak naman... I don't think I can also do that..."

I'm facing mental health disorders, I am aware of it, anxiety... sometimes it is severe, how could I live with a son or daughter knowing that I'm not fully healed yet?

"I respect that decision of yours, Tifanie. You and your decisions matter and I will always support you as long as it won't hurt you." She replied with a warm smile.

Very thankful. That is what I am right now, I'm very much thankful to these people who always do their best to avoid me from pains that might trigger my traumas in the past.