The Beginning (Raulson FanFic)[slowly editing]

The Beginning

Somewhere in the night, we drifted away from the crowd and from our other fellow castmates. We found ourselves at the garden at the back of Zach's villa, sitting at the edge of the fountain, hands laced together while looking at the beautiful blanket of shining stars.

We did the usual we kept on talking about random things, from movies, to Hollywood actresses and so on. After a few laughs, she suddenly stopped talking.

I turned my head sideways to look at her face.

"Hey? Sarah? you okay?" I asked, she gave me a smile as she nods. But I know her. It was pretty obvious that she was forcing a smile. I scoot closer to her and cupped her face as I stare into her caramel brown eyes.

"Sarah?" I raised my brow as I asked her sternly.

"Lily... I... I can't live this life anymore." She says as she averted her gaze and put my hand down from her face.

"What are you talking about?" I asked as she squeezed my hand lightly "I can't live my life pretending... pretending that it's over. Lily... I can't hold my feelings back any longer. I love you. I... I still love you" she said those words as she broke down in tears.

"Sarah, I feel the same way too... I still... love you, Florie." those words escape from my lips as loosened myself from her grip and cupped her face with both of my hands while wiping the tears of from her face with my thumb

She smiled at me, the sincere smile that melts my heart

"Lily..." she whispered softly, my name rolls of her tongue like honey, her facial expression changed as she sighed and said "I don't get it Lily... Why do you have to do this? Why do you keep on keeping my hopes up that we can still be together? Why are you telling me that you feel the same way if you're with him?"

"Sarah. It's... --" I put my hands down and took a deep breath.

"Lily... you have to understand, I can't keep on hoping that you'll come back to me. If you're still with him, do you really love him? Does he make you feel like you're the only woman in the world? Does he make you happy when you're sad? Does he understand how you feel? Tell me, Lily. Does he love you the way that I loved you?"

"Sarah... He... Loves me... and I love him too" I sighed. I'm such a manipulative cunt. I'm selfish. I want Sarah more than anything in this world. But, I couldn't let go of him. He does make me happy, He does make me feel so important, but I couldn't bring myself to love him the way that I love her.

She gave me a bittersweet smile as she nods and bit her lip, her tears kept on falling from her eyes like a waterfall. Fuck Lily, be fucking honest to yourself

"I love him but I can't bring myself to love him just like I love you"

"Lily..." She groaned and shook her head, "this is wrong. I should have not gone here with you in the first place. I'm leaving." Sarah said coldly as she stood up and walked away. I chased her and called her name out; she turned around and looks at me wiping tears from her face.

"GREAT SARAH! That's what you're good at! LEAVING, RUNNING away" she shook her head and turned her back on me, and continuously walks like she's not hearing anything. I ran towards her, I don't care if my feet get hurt from running with high heels on. I just need to talk to her; to not let her ran away just like what she did before.

"Sarah! It was you who left me! and he was the one who's there to help me get through it! You left me without any warning! I FUCKING HATED you but everytime I see you, I just..." I ran away, with tears rolling down from my face, as I thought about the things that happened that brought us here, in this fucking situation.