I Hope You Will Not Forget This Either (Sitkolson)

I Knew It All Along

Ryan's POV

Ricky and I walked and talked to his house. He doesn't live to far away from the school. We talked about random and stupid things like music, food, people at school. It was a nice walk. Allie kept texting me non-stop so I turned my phone onto do not disturb. I really don't like her in a more than friends way but I can't break up with her. Yeah she is cute and sweet but I don't liked her. I like someone else and I want to be with them but I don't think they like me.

When we got to his house Ricky led me to his living room. It was an average living room. Tv, couches, and tables.

"You want to talk about Allie now?"
He asked when I sat on the couch.

I'm nervous to tell him but I feel like I can trust him.

"Sure."

"Okay well just tell me anything you are comfortable with."

"Well Allie and I have been dating for a little over a year. I never really liked her but she asked me out and I have problems saying no to people. I have been wanting to break up with her for a log time now especially since I like someone else. I doubt they will ever like me but I still want to try something with them then be stuck in a relationship I don't want." I looked away from him after confessing a little more about my relationship with Allie. I was embarrassed to be completely honest. I don't want him to have the wrong impression of me.

"I am kinda in the same situation. I don't have a girlfriend but I do like someone that probably won't like me in a long time. It will probably take a while before he likes me but I'm determined to get him. Just like you should be determined to go after who you like."

Wait! Did Ricky just say he? Ricky likes guys! This is great. He still probably doesn't like me too but at least I have a better chance now! Yeah I like Ricky. Don't judge me about it though. I've gotten pretty close with him these last few years even though we only have, at the most, 2 classes together. And I've always been way I afraid to come out but now that I know Ricky likes guys too well I'm going to tell him at least. This gave me an idea. Hopefully he won't hate me after this.

Ricky's POV

Fuck I didn't mean to say that. He probably thinks I'm a freak or something now.

"Oh shit yeah if you don't know, well you know now. I'm gay. Please don't be freaked out or anything."

I made a mistake. I knew I would do something like this. I lost my only friend that actually was nice and seemed to enjoy being around me. Why do I always me---

Is he doing what I really think he is doing? He is, Ryan Sitkowski was kissing me! Wait does this mean I'm the person he likes. So much is happening I didn't even think about how to react. He backed away from me after a couple seconds which disappointed me. Did he think I didn't like that?

"I-I'm sorry uh, I shouldn't have done that. I'm going to leave now." He started to walk to the front door.

"Wait Ryan, don't leave. Please stay."

"No it's fine I get it. You probably like one of the popular guys. I'm just your classmate that has a hopeless crush on you. Forget I ever did that."

"Ryan! You are the guy I like. I don't like any of those dicks. I like you. I like you a lot really." ugh all the words coming from my mouth sound like the most cliché thing ever. But it's the truth so I don't want to hold back on telling him it. I knew he was gay.

"Really? You like me?"

"Yeah I do"

A/N
I'm rushing the beginning a lot so I'm sorry about that. Trust me when I say that the story will get better soon.