I Hope You Will Not Forget This Either (Sitkolson)

Starting Tour

One Year Later

Ricky's POV

I wake up this morning to another dream about Ryan. I miss him so much. I have been keeping my promises too. There is no way that I could love anyone but him. After that last skype with Ryan, I just got swallowed into depression. I contemplated suicide so many times but I couldn't leave Ryan. If I killed myself he would never know and I didn't want to make him suffer more pain if never finding me or finding me dead.

Today is my 18th birthday. It's been  only a year since I last seen Ryan. It's still been absolute shit. I doubt he will ever recognize me of we find each other. Knowing that I have changed so much I wonder how much he has changed.

I completely changed my appearance and I go by the last name Horror now. I got three lip piercings. I kept my black hair that I dyed before leaving Scranton but I style it differently. I got quite a few tattoos considering I got then like a mad man when I got back. It kept me away from Greg and I live tattoos so I was more than willing to get them. I needed to get Greg out if my life and I needed to make sure that he wouldn't be able to find me. And that's exactly what I did.

"Ricky come downstairs! I have a surprise for you!" my sister squealed. We moved in with one of her friends family about 4 months after I was forced to come back.

"I'm coming. Calm down you're going to wake up everyone."

I run downstairs as quickly as I could without waking up the sleeping family. My sister and I always wake up a good hour before everyone else.

"What is my surprise?"

"These!" she squealed once again and held out a couple of tickets. They are for a band called Motionless In White. The name sounds familiar.

"How did you get these?" I questioned. Seriously were did she get money?

"I've been babysitting a bunch. I didn't know who exactly you would have wanted to see. These guys are from home so I thought maybe they could help you find Ryan." she replied. I hug her almost instantaneously after she said that.

"Thank you so much. I hope maybe they can help. Scranton is a fairly small place. Their name sounds cool too. Let's go check out some of their music."

We spend the rest of the day jamming out to Motionless In White. They were actually really good. I can't wait for the concert next week!

Ryan's POV

It's been a year without Ricky. I miss him a lot but the band has help me through all of it. Tj tried to tell me that it would be best to just get over him. There is no way I could ever do that.

We have a show is Seattle coming up. I'm hoping that maybe I can look for Ricky when we get there. Maybe he will be at the show! I hope he is safe and got away from Greg. I miss him so god damn much.

My phone is ringing and I see I am getting a call from Chris.

"Sup" I ask

"I have bad news, Ryan." Chris says sounding upset.

"Well tell me the bad news."

"Frank quit. He just came over to my house today and quit."

"Are you fucking serious?"

"Yup. I'm sure we will be fine with a couple shows without him. We will work on finding a new bassist later. Right now we have to practice for the upcoming shows."

"You're right. Hey are we still practicing at Angelo's today?"

"Yeah we are, come around 5:00."

"Fuck, Tj is not going to like hearing this news. I'll see you at Angelo's, my dad needs some help right now."

After I hung up I run downstairs. My dad and I have been working on the van for the band. We have the frames for most the bunks finished so far. We have I finish the bunks soon though since we are leaving tomorrow.

*the next day*

We are leaving for tour today! The bunks aren't the greatest but they will work. Angelo hates his though. He keeps saying it's going to ruin the tour. We don't have a bassist but that's fine. We can play without one for awhile.

"Ryan hurry up. We will leave your ass behind if needed." Tj yelled at me. The stairs at my house are steep. It's hard to walk down them with a suitcase filled with clothes for the next two months.

"I'm coming, calm down."

"If there are arguments like this while in the van I will beat you both until you are in conscience." Balz yelled at Tj and I. We both tend to get in a lot of arguments.

"It's not my fault Ryan is a---

"Let's just head out. I'm tired and want to sleep. And don't laugh at my blanket. My mom gave it to me, I don't actually like spongebob." Angelo interrupted Tj.

"Yeah I agree with the first sentence that Angelo just said. But I love spongebob so how dare you diss spongebob like that." Chris said putting his hand on his chest to mock being hurt.

I now realize that this trip is going to be very interesting. I hope I will be able survive the first few hours.