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Letters : Billy

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This is Kim's letter to Billy, written in 1984, one year before her death.

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'Dear Bil,
You're a pain in my ass, you know that?. Like, real stubborn sort of pain in my ass, but I love you. I know that you're not as close with the group as I'd hoped you to be, but I still love you the same as I love them.

I'm glad I met you. I'm glad I had the honour of working with you, pulling all those pranks on each other. I'm glad you've been there in my darkest moments, I'm glad you've shown me things, places and people I never thought I'd have the pleasure of knowing.

You'll always have a special place in my heart. Always. And, though none of you will ever compare to Eddie, you're still the most important thing in my life. I love you for different reasons, and I love you because you're different.

Yeah, you're annoying, but so am I. We get each other differently to how the others get me, or I to them, and I appreciate you every day that I still breath.

And even though I don't always show it, and even though I sometimes want to punch a hole in that stupid pretty face of yours, I want to tell you that you are special to me, and you always be. You are everything I hate in a person: rude, obnoxious, smug, selfish, and so many other things. But even though I hate all those things about you, I just can't help but love the person that those qualities made. It's weird, I don't understand it, I probably never will. And if I am being honest I never want to understand it.

And listen, it's so obvious that you fancy Kathleen. JUST TELL HER ALREADY!. You guys would be so cute, and she needs somebody like you in her life. She needs hope and love, and I know that you could potentially give that to her.

BUT I SWEAR WILLIAM - do not hurt her. I will break your jaw and snap your fingers off every hour for every finger you have. Take this warning very fucking seriously, okay?.

But besides that, I just wanted you to know how much I love and appreciate you, and I hope we get to live out our days by each others side until we die. You're the only one who's ever understood me, Billy. We've been though so much together and I can't imagine anyone else I could have had by my side. I know I've got issues and I know I'm not perfect, but you love me anyway, and I love you so much. You're one of the best things to ever happen to me, and I'm so grateful that I get to call you my friend. I don't need anyone else when I've got you.

So, Thank you for being my best friend.

You're the greatest pain in my ass ever, and I love you, forever.

Yours truly
(the one and only),
Kim x

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