Finding the Missing Piece: Book 4

Chapter Forty-Six

Peeta POV-

As upset as I am with Katniss, I can't blame her. If I would make her take care of herself better, a lot of this wouldn't have happened.

It's not like she is intentionally doing any of this but it's still frustrating to me because I know she gets tired of me 'babysitting' her all the time.

If she would do what she needs to do, I wouldn't have to babysit her.

I decide that I can't be mad at her but I know what Doctor Coles told her is hitting her pretty hard.

I go into the living room where she sits there, staring at the blank television screen.

"Katniss, stop blaming yourself. We need to be thankful nothing is wrong and make sure we keep you and her safe and healthy from now on." I tell her.

She just stares up at me, in a daze it seems.

"You're not going to lecture me?" Katniss asks in shock.

"No. It wasn't my plan. I think you've been lectured enough about it."

"Obviously not enough." She shrugs.

"You're stubborn but you're not stupid. You know what you need to do." I tell her.

Katniss sighs, "I'm sorry, okay? I am and just please lecture me about how I need to take better care of myself and Willow. Remind me of how you wouldn't be able to go on if anything happened to us and how you would never forgive yourself and that I need to get myself together." She says, flustered.

I can't help but to laugh at her.

"Well?" She asks impatiently.

I shake my head, "You already know the lecture, you don't need it. I just need you to enforce it, since you obviously know it."

She groans.

I decide to change the subject.

"If you feel up to it, we could go see my grandparents tomorrow?" I say, taking a deep breath.

I haven't seen them since this all happened and I'm sure they're devastated about my parents and brothers.

We sent them a card about the baby but they didn't call or anything.

"Do you think we should invite them for Thanksgiving? They've never been to our house." Katniss shrugs.

"I kind of wanted to take you out there but if you want to do that, I think it'd be okay."

"As much as I would love to go out there, I'm too clumsy and with my luck, something would happen. I don't want anything to happen." Katniss says stubbornly.

She's right though, we'd go and something would happen and it wouldn't be good.

It would be just our luck.

"How about since Bristol and Carter will be here on Thanksgiving day, we have my grandparents come over the day before for a meal?" I suggest.

"I think that would be fine."

I nod, "I can call tomorrow and see."

"Okay." She says, making an awkward silence.

I sit down next to her on the couch and she sighs deeply.

"I don't know if I am ready to be a mother, Peeta."

My heart breaks at her words.

"Katniss, it's a little too late now." I mumble, disappointed with her words of choice today.