My Ideal Gamer

Chapter 26

"Everyone knows me as Denxel Santos ever since I was in high school. I forgot about Dae-Hyun Sang when I came here. Being Denxel Santos was the most best chapter of my life that everyone makes a place for me in this country, I feel like I'm one of the people living in here that's why I continued to disguised myself as Denxel Santos, it was my mom's idea. And Denxel was the guy that you loved so much and loved you so much Hyuna.. You hurted Denxel and the real me so much. Ever since I've met you.. I wished I was Denxel Santos the guy that you know, admired and loved." 

My gaze soften at the moment I heard him explain the reason for my answer. Akala ko kaya ko but I ended up feeling guilty again. Napa-iyak ako sa mga sinabi niya pero bawat patak ng aking luha ay agad kong ipinupunas as I've already told myself to have courage and strength to face him right now. I'm not breaking down in front of him. 

Don't let him get you Hyuna.

"Bakit ka naki pagbreak?" Agad akong napatingin sa kaniya nang ako naman ang tanungin niya. Nakatingin lang ito sa akin, his gaze soften also his assuring tone that never changes asking me.

I just stared at him ng ilang minuto until I'm ready to speak and tell him everything that he should know. 

"Denxel hindi ito ang tamang oras para sa relasyon.. and we are not a match for each other because of our status and family standard. Your mother doesn't like me, my sister don't agree with this relationship. You guys are wealthy while we are just in middle-class. We are both compelled by them especially you, and Bea is an ideal for you and you deserve someone like her who loves you and will do anything for you. I'm not your ideal Denxel, until when should I face all the taunts from your mother? Right now I've decided to focus on my studies and future career  first and wait for love at the right time and person. I'm sorry Denxel if I had to do this but it would be the best for the two of us to end this relationship. Pinagtagpo tayo pero hindi tinadhana but at least the both of us will remain as a memory in our hearts. I'm really sorry Denxel but I've decided to close this chapter of our story." Pagpapahayag ko kay Denxel in a mannered way which the both of us should be able to understand the ending of our story.

Bigla kong naramdaman ang kamay niya sa aking pisngi, hindi ko namalayan na umiiyak pala ako habang nagpapaliwanag sa kaniya as he caresses my both cheeks and wiped my tears. He formed a slight smile while we are looking at each other's faces.

"Mahal mo paba ako?" Tanong niya in his softest tone and gaze looking towards my eyes.

Tinitigan ko lang ito at ngumiti ng konti. "Who wouldn't love a man like you? Pero ano pabang magagawa ko para manatili ka sa akin?" Ma iyak-iyak kong wika sa kaniya.

"I understand Hyuna.. It's hard for the both of us but let's promise that we'll move on and be strong, okay?" Wika niya in his assuring and comforting tone.

Finally he understood what I've just explained which made me relief and comfort. "Promise?" Sabay taas ko ng pinky finger ko habang nakangiti because of the idea of this.

"Promise." He connected his pinky finger to mine.

Napangiti lang kaming dalawa sa isa't-isa until Denxel spoke again. "I'm going back to Korea, but before I go I just wanted to see you for the last time.. I'll miss you so much." 

Unting-unti nawala ang ngiti ko sa sinabi niya. 

"Hey, don't be sad Hyuna.." Kahit siya ay nawala rin ang ngiti nang makita ang reaksyon ko.

Hyuna don't be sad girl! Hindi naman ganon kalayo ang Korea sa Pilipinas. Pero bakit ba siya a-alis?

Umiling-iling lang ako at ngumiti ulit. "I'm not! Nagulat lang ako sa sinabi mo, but anyways mag ingat ka doon ah." Sabay tapik-tapik ko sa balikat niya while trying to act happy for him.