Brothers? BTS

PART I: 16

"I shouldn't have done that, I shouldn't have done that," Rowoon kept mumbling as he sat down on the floor, his hands in a fist. Just like the first day they met each other, Rowoon felt his breathing grow fast. He leaned on the couch 

His vision got blurry as his eyelids were about to close. Eui widened her eyes holding his face with her hands and making him look at her. His blurry vision showed a silhouette of her as he tried to keep his eyes open. Eui remembered something. She froze for a second biting her lip as tears formed in her eyes. She shook her head, Rowoon was more important now.

She hugged him tightly. She placed his head on her chest, on her heart.

"Feel my breathing Rowoon, breathe with me," Eui kept whispering.

Rowoon felt her chest expand and contract with the sounds of her strong heartbeat. His muscles relaxed. His brain relaxed and the stress in his head was slowly fading away. Her breath, her chest moving up and down, her scent, her warmth, and their heartbeats slowed him down. Made him breathe and calm down.

"What was that?! You scared me to death!" Eui hit his arm as soon as he sat up properly and gave her a reassuring nod.

"You don't need to worry about it, just go and rest, forget everything that happened," He said standing up and moving towards the room.

"Why are you like that?" Eui's question made him stop. He didn't need to turn back to know she was crying. He wanted to comfort her but he couldn't, he should stop. It will only hurt her. 

"Why do you act like you don't care when you do? Why do you care when you are trying to hide it? Why do you read all my texts if you don't want to reply to them? Why do you like all my posts yet tell me they are bad? Why do you let me hug you, sleep on you, kiss you but go away? Why do you act like there was not even a single emotion between us when you know how much we affect each other?!WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!" Eui was screaming as tears were running down her face.

She had enough. All these past months when she would secretly see him smile in the college corridor reading her texts, see his notifications of liking her post, watching him slowly fill her water bottle and place it in her locker every time she went out to play, watch him arrange the books in the library so she could easily find the ones she needed, and watch him care for her without saying a word, give her hopes that maybe he would ask her out or something only to be let down by his silence. She had read his silence, he was restricting himself from being with her.

"Why do you give me hope?" She whispered, her voice cracking. Rowoon felt his heart clenching. 

"Just tell me to stop," she said before sitting down with a thud. 

"Is it because of my brothers?" She asked, looking up. He shook his head.

"Then why? Just give me a reason," She asked, sniffing.

"I-" Rowoon couldn't tell it in words. He didn't know how to explain himself. He sighed. He probably shouldn't, it will just end up hurting her more. But he widened his eyes feeling a pair of hands circling his waist.

Eui gazed outside the balcony they had, it was night. And her heart felt it was right to comfort him more than tell her feelings and that's what she did.

Rowoon gave out a sigh before turning around. She thought he would push her away again but he surprised her by hugging her back, nuzzling himself in her neck as he breathed in her scent.

"You can decide what you want to do with me after you hear me out," He said before bringing her to the couch. 

He sat beside her but widened his eyes when she sat on his lap and hugged his waist, resting her head on his chest. Rowoon sighed before telling her.