Don't wanna look back and say it could've been me

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|Don't wanna live as untold story| 

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As Jisoo jogs back to the bar where she left her wallet at, she couldn't stop thinking about that girl that performed before Wendy dragged her out. 

She knew that wasn't the Park that she reserved the mic for but it was sure a happy accident because that girl had the voice of an angel - and a face of one too. 

Jisoo shakes the thought off her head - she wanted to date but she wasn't that desperate.

"Hey I left my wallet here - do you have it?" she asked the bartender whom she talked to earlier 

"Oh yeah, I figured you'd be back - here" the bartender hands her wallet 

Jisoo smiles in gratitude and turns around to go back to Wendy - her "supposed" date long forgotten. She doesn't even know why she wants to date, give it to Sehun to put ideas in her head about things she barely care about. 

As sad as that sounds, it's true. 

She had this significant other - according to some of the details she got from herself in a letter that she wrote herself and from some of her friends. 

Jisoo had specific parts of her memories removed because of a girlfriend that had hurt her so much to put herself in a situation that she actually wants to erase her from everything. In her letter that she wrote herself before she went in the surgery she wrote that this surgery was for the better and that it is a neccesarry step in surviving. 

She checks her wallet for it's contents - everything was there even the clinic's calling card where she had her memories removed. She doesn't have the guts to throw it out yet. A part of her feels missing and she felt that this calling card is the closest thing she has to holding on to sanity. 

Jisoo puts the calling card back and walks away. 

In the distance, Park Chaeyoung sees that girl from the cafe again as her sister rants on the cons of online dating. She saw that same girl earlier in the crowd again as she was singing - there was something about this girl that pulls her attention in the most infuriating way that Chaeyoung can't help but wonder why. 

When Joy sees that her little sister had her eyebrows furrowed in the bar entrance - she sighs. "Are you happy being back here?" Joy asks which made her sister looked at her 

"Being back in our hometown - with my studio apartment that can barely fit my things and a job that I barely like?" Chaeyoung asks, "Nope" she answers her own question 

"Then why don't you go back to New York?"

Chaeyoung seemed to ponder about her question, "There's something about this place - I hate it and I love it at the same time" Chaeyoung explains but Joy just looked confused 

"Ever since my car accident and lost a significant amount of memory that I might never get back I always felt like a part of me was missing, as if there was a void in me that I thought I could fill by traveling" Chaeyoung continues 

"I stayed in New York because I got tired of looking for a place where I felt like I belonged but this place - I hate everything here and I can't explain why but I can't seem to stay away" 

Chaeyoung spots the worried look in her sister's eyes so she quickly reassures her that she's fine, "besides I've only been back for a month or so - I haven't even unpacked all my stuff yet. I'm fine, Unnie" 

"Do you ever want your memory back?" Joy asks contemplating on the topic 

"Of course" Chaeyoung shrugs 

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