My Life, My Forever (Sequel)

Chapter 62♡

(Zack's P.O.V)

My therapy sessions had been really good lately. Me and my therapist had been delving more into my good memories that I have with Dad. I was staring to feel nervous.. because the good memories make me emotional. I remember when I was eight years old. Tyler hadn't arrived yet. Dad took me to the toy store and bought me a fire truck. I was obsessed with them at the time. I used to watch cartoons about firemen. Dad would always sit and watch them with me. My therapist Brian said that the good memories were bound to make me emotional. When his mom got ill, I became very upset.

The other day..

"Hi Zack." Sitting in the chair, I tried not to explode. 'Hi.' The man then introduced himself. 'My name is Neil. I'm here to listen to you. And help you.' I took a deep breath. 'Hi Neil.' He then asked me how I was currently feeling. 'I feel angry. I know that my mom loves me. She does. I just feel angry at my father.' Neil gave me a simple instruction. 'Close your eyes please.' Closing them, he then said to take five deep breaths. 'Will this work?' Neil could tell that I was feeling anxious. 'Yes. Just trust the process.' I then heard him start to talk. 'I would like you to picture a good memory that you have with your dad.'

'Run.. little man. Run.' Hearing my dad, I ran towards him. He then picked me up. 'Ahh, you're so cute.' We sat on the step that was in the garden. My baby brother wasn't even born yet. So, I was an only child for now. 'Do you know that dinosaurs eat broccoli?' I giggled. 'They don't silly.' Dad then tickled me. Giggling even more, he asked me if I was excited to have a baby brother. 'Yes I am Daddy. I'll get to play with him.' He then kissed the top of my head.

End of memory number 1...

'You can open your eyes now Zack.' As I opened them, tears spilled down my cheeks. 'I would like you to know that it's okay to cry. This is a healthy way to express your emotions.' I then said that we went inside. 'My mom and I watched my favorite childhood show for a bit. Dad then decided to cook dinner. Mom had a strange thing about pasta when she was pregnant with Tyler. I just wanna know what made him change.' 

Neil then said that maybe my dad was going through some internal struggles that he wanted to keep quiet. 'How and when did your father start to change?' I looked at the view outside the window..

'Chris? Honey..' Hearing Mom's voice, I opened the bedroom door. Me and Tyler had been playing a board game. 'I'll leave you to sleep.' Sitting on the stairs, Mom hugged me. 'Morning.' She then asked me if I was okay. 'I'm alright thanks.' She asked if I wanted some breakfast. 'Yes please.' We then headed downstairs. 'Would you like cereal or bagels sweetheart?' I said that I'd like some cereal. Sitting at the kitchen table, she asked me if I wanted to get Dad and Tyler. 'Okay. Dad! Tyler!' I heard her giggle. When I sat at the table, I asked how Gran and Granddad were. 'I think that they are okay.' Dad and Tyler then came downstairs. Tyler sat next to me and Dad went outside. 'Why isn't Dad having breakfast with us Mom?' She looked at me. 'I'm not sure baby.'

End of memory 2..

'How did you feel about that morning Zack?' Neil wrote some more things down. 'It felt like the whole morning was ruined. It was just a normal day and Dad ruined it.' Neil looked at me. 'Did you have a sense of how he was feeling at the time?' I said yes. 'He was staying in bed all time. Him and Mom had distanced a lot. He was very short tempered and he was just quiet all the time.' Neil could tell that I was starting to panic. 'Take some slow, deep breaths.' I sat there.. in the chair. 'Just try and be present. In the peace and quiet.' Neil then said that how I was feeling was normal. 'You're experiencing a deep type of sadness. It's okay.'