My Life, My Forever (Sequel)

Chapter 33♡

(Alex's P.O.V)

I couldn't sleep. Getting my notepad, I thought about the possiblity of getting to know someone again. I was attending therapy for a start which is great. Zack and Tyler are getting better. They are becoming more open. Olivia told me about Caleb so I was thinking of asking Zack if he'd like to meet up with him so that they could talk. Getting some paper, I wrote down pros on one page and then cons on another.

Pros..

1. I get to meet someone new and find out what it's like to be out again.

2. I get to see what I'd like in someone completely diffrent and just be happy without thinking too much about what's happened in my past.

3. I get to get dressed up for mutiple dates!💜

4. I just get to have fun.

Cons..

1. I keep thinking that another guy will have an issue and that I won't be able to help.

2. I'll introvert and become guarded and not let another guy in.

3. I'll keep being emotional and blame myself for everything that happened before.

4. I'll keep thinking that I'm the problem.

Ringing Pheobe, she answered. "Hey. What's up?' I asked her if she was feeding or anything. "No. I'm not. Finn is actually sleeping and Harper is resting too." I then asked her how she was feeling. "Well, my body still feels extremely sore." I said that was normal. "So, what's up?' I told her more.. "Ahh, that's great! What do you have so far on your pros list?'

I told her. "Those points sound really good so far!" I thanked her. "So, do you have any cons?' Thinking more about that, I sighed.

"I have like a tonne.." Pheobe laughed. "Go on then!" I reeled them all off..🤣

"I could meet a weirdo. Or an axe murderer!" Pheobe then laughed. "The guy could have as many issues as I do.." Pheobe kept giggling. "Ooo.. hello you." She apologised. "That's okay. How's she getting on with feeding and stuff?" Pheobe smiled. "She's great. She's perfect. Finn adores her."

I said that was lovely. She then gave me some advice. "Continue to take care of yourself first. Me and the girls can see how much you've improved in the last few months. You're getting there." I thanked her. "I feel like I'm more free. The arrangement didn't work out. I felt really hurt. You girls could tell that. I just wanted to see if I could heal him." Pheobe sympathized with me. "I know hun. I get that. What are you scared of?'

I admitted that I'm frightened of someone abandoning me, Tyler and Zack.

"That must be really difficult to feel. Alex, you are such a lovely person. You deserve someone who cherises you and gets to know Zack and Tyler." I agreed. "Little miss has now fallen asleep." I cooed. "Aw bless her. I'll talk to you soon. Thanks again." Finishing the call, I got a text.

It was Olivia.

Hey. I'm just checking in. Did you find a therapist for Zack?

I completely forgot to even do that. It's because I spoke to him. I don't wanna push him. Tyler hasn't really spoken to me either.

Texting her back.. I was honest.

I haven't found one yet. I just don't wanna push him.

Heading downstairs to get a glass of water, I heard Mom. "You need to stop calling me. Please stop." Standing near the kitchen door, I peeked around the corner. "Everything okay Mom?" She smiled at me. "Yes sweetheart. Everything is fine." Getting a glass of water, she clasped her hands together. Sitting at the table, she then said that she had to tell me something.