Soulless

Thirty One | Hate me

Lunden Evergreen

"Lunden, they have your face." A sincerity laced his eyes, I felt a knot in my stomach. I'd been so careful, how did Verena not know? She would've informed me if it were true, I wouldn't let him in, not yet.

"I would know if they had my face Atlas" His hand leans against the door, desperate to get in. Desperate to hold me, after I'd gone through hell and back. I'd never been in love before him and now I knew it was a door that should've never been opened.

I'd never move on, I knew that. But I could live without him, after everything. I saw the photo, the syringe, and how he tried to kill me. I knew the truth.

"You were ready to turn me in like I was your trophy. I saw it, I have no idea how I lived or why I was conscious. How I made it to Verena's car or even here" He sighed once more in frustration. Now the tables were turned and I was the one who needed convincing.

"You tried to kill me" I repeat.

"Do you believe it?" His head rests against the side of the door frame as he stares at me. Disparity filled his face as he stared into my soul.

"Do I believe what?"

"Do you believe that I'm in love with you Angelo" My heart quickened with his words because I knew the answer. I knew he wouldn't be in front of me if it weren't true, I just didn't want to believe it.

"Atlas..."

"Because if I love you, why the hell would I try and kill you Lunden? I love you and I chose you and will continue to. Because I love you and I can't live without you" I watch as his fingers grip the frame of the door for support.

"Six weeks and I've lost my mind, I mean you took my dog and I accepted it. Because I knew Pepper was safe and happy with you, her Mom" He was broken, I could see it. I didn't know what to do, how to trust him, or what to fully say.

"If you don't believe me, then why didn't you kill me, Lunden?" His words hit me like a train because I knew why, we both knew why.

"If you really thought I'd kill you, why didn't you take me out first? If you truly believed I could do it, that I would do it... why didn't you do it?"

"You know why."

"I don't, because if I did I'd be inside beside you right now. Because we would've communicated and talked it out instead of running away from each other-"

"You didn't talk to me for five days, and I didn't know if I'd come home one day and be in cuffs. Because you seemed pretty disgusted by me, by what I did" I take a deep breath and place a hand on my little bump, stress wasn't good for them, "What was I supposed to think Atlas?"

"That I loved you, and that I was scared because I was choosing you over my career. I've never had someone in my life like you, who I want to spend the rest of my life with. Who I've loved since I met her but wasn't supposed to. I just wished we talked-"

"And you didn't want to, you shut me out instead because I get it. You needed time. But you could've given me a heads-up, that you needed me to play dead. That you were taking me away to hide because you put me at risk" My hand leans against the wall as I grow tired, my energy is already partially gone.