gamer girl wildest dreams

everything in luggage

After breakfast.  Everyone gets ready for the trip.

Channie calls for a company van.

I'm sitting in the living room. Bouncing my leg.

Chris comes and crouches down in front of me and pushes my leg down.

Channie:  you ok babe?

Me: yes just excited,  nervous,  and happy.

Channie:  awwww you have Hans anxiety issues. 

Me: babe I have more then that. I fight depression,  anxiety of all types, and I worry about messing up alot. Stress plays a big battle on top of the anxiety.

Channie: we're all here for you baby.  It's ok. I'll take care you.

Me: but I'm worried I'll mess up in some way and you'll get tired of me like the rest of the world has.

Channie: I understand. But I'm a patient guy and I am understanding.

Me: I know. I  love that. It's just me in my head.

Channie:  everyone gets in there head too babe. I for one also have that problem.  But everything work's out.

He kisses me.

Channie:  no worries. Let's enjoy today and we'll take it step by step.

Me: ok.

Channie:  later tonight I can't wait to get you out of my clothes.  Your fuck hot in them.

Me: oh really Mr Bang?  I smile.

Channie:  you have no idea. He winks.

Everyone is ready. I grab my purse and shoes. we all head to the elevator. Everyone gets on. The elevator door opens and we see a black van. Chris opens the van door and we get in.

Chris sits by me holding my hand. Everyone starts goofing off like children in a car pool.

Channie:  see what I go through?  He smiles and laughs.

Me: oh I know I've seen plenty of YouTube videos.  I laugh.

Channie:  that's why I love you.  Because you understand us and know what you are getting into.

Me: how do you  know where I live?

Channie:  jyp found out.

Me: EVIL! I laugh.

Chris laughs.

About 45 minutes later. We're at my house.

Channie:  Lee know did you grab her keys?

Lee know pulls them out and throws them to Chris.

Chris  unlocks the door and opens it.

Me: such a gentleman.

He winks and smiles.

Me: come in everyone make your self at home.

Felix:  game room where is it?

I show him. Felix,  I.N, Seungmin rush to it.

Felix:  omg this computer looks gorgeous.

Me: There's drinks and stuff in the refrigerator if anyone wants anything.

I grab my backpack and head to the bathroom to pack everything.  Soaps, and the hygiene and feminine stuff.

Then I head to the bedroom and grab travel bags and pack my underwear and clothes. 

I lay on the bed with a dizzy head.

Chris comes in.

Channie:  does the ceiling look good or did the bed knock you down?

Me: just a small anxiety attack.  I'll be ok babe.  I smile.

He leave the room and gets a glass of water.

Channie: here drink.  Plus you didn't eat much and calm down babe. Is everything you need packed?

I take the glass and drink. I start breathing. 

Me: thank you. Yes everything I need is packed. Everything in my bathroom is packed.  My belongings in the bedroom is packed.

The driver takes it all.

Channie:  I'm proud of you.

Me: what? Why?

Channie:  for fighting your anxiety. Are you ready?

Me: yes. I'm ready to go to our home.

Channie:  that's my girl.  Keep saying that in your head. It'll help calm your storm in your head. Because it is our home. 

He pulls me up and gives me a big hug and kisses me.

Channie:  I love you my blue sea.

Me: I love you too.  But blue sea?

Channie:  those gorgeous blue eyes babe. They always reminds me of my favorite place the ocean.

I smile.