gamer girl wildest dreams

concert day in L.A

It's the day of the concert.  I didn't sleep at all. I look at my phone It's 6:30 am in the morning.  I get up and go to the bathroom get in the shower. The hot water feels nice. After my shower I find pj's to put on then head to the kitchen for coffee.  I see my Lil bro I.N.

Me: what are you doing up so early?

I.N: I was going to ask you the same.  I'm always up before anyone.

Me: I've been up all night.  Couldn't sleep.

I.N: you are going to be exhausted all day.

Me: I'm used to it. I don't sleep much anyway.  Insomnia problems.

I.N: so what do you do all night when Chan is sleeping?

Me: I just lay there next to him and read. Or put my ear buds in and watch stuff. I laugh.

Then we hear moaning.

Channie:  what are you 2 doing up so early.  Babe come back to bed. I don't like waking up without you there.

Me: I'll catch you later Lil bro. I smile.

I walk back to the bedroom with Chris.

Channie:  get your ass back in bed Mrs Bang.

Me: damn ok. If you don't stop calling me that I'm going to get used to it.  I  laugh.

Channie: what is that a bad thing? He smiles.

Me: of course not Mr Bang.

I get in bed and he gets in behind me. Starts cuddling me. He smells my hair.

Channie: did you already take a shower?

Me: yes. Why?

Channie:  you smells amazing. How long have you been awake?

Me: you want honesty or a lie? I laugh.

Channie: you better tell me the truth.

Me: will I maybe, sorta, haven't slept yet! I shrink down small.

Chris flips me on my back and lays on top of me.

Channie:  you what now?

Me: I haven't slept all night.  I've been up over 24 hours.

I do puppy eyes to get me out of trouble.

Channie:  emmm yeah your cute and all. But your still in trouble.

I make a cute kissy face.

Channie: Renee knock it off.

I squeez my eyes shut and ball up my hand's and say meow.

Channie:  RENEE BANG.

Me: damn your serious.  OK. OK. OK fine.  But in my defense I'm an insomniac. Which you are too don't even go there. I see you tossing and turning at nights. Mr Bang Chan I don't sleep much.

Chris laughs.

Channie:  oh you've noticed.

Me: mmmmhmmm!

Channie:  fine damn it. Ugh!

I reach up and put my hands on both sides of his cheeks. Kiss him.

Channie:  I love you Renee. 

Me: I love you too Chris.  Is this everything you wanted?

Channie:  like what babe?

Me: just was wondering if you gotten everything you could dream for.

Channie: if your asking if my life is full. Then yes I've got it all plus a smoking hot fiance. Same question goes back to you?

Me: I've never thought being in this life. It's been a hell of a ride. I'm still adjusting and processing everything.  At times it's overwhelming and my mental war kicks up with anxiety and me doubting everything and everyone.  But I'm trying to control myself.

Channie: I see it baby girl.  It's ok. Everyone understands you now.  The reason why the way you are. You've been through hell. I've never seen someone fight so hard and be alive.  That takes courage,  strength,  determination and mind power to do it.

Me: I'm trying. 

There's a knock at the door.

Han: Dan needs to talk with you.

We get up and go to the living room. 

Dan: Miss Osborne Jake is in long Beach. We're tacking his movements. 

Me: why are you tracking him? Get him already. 

Dan: this is a serious issue Miss Osborne.  He's  smart. You know how he is.

Me: unfortunately I do. He's to fast.

Dan: after the concert tonight we're leaving for Illinois in the morning.  Jyp order's. 

Me: yes I get it. Fire one of the tablets up in the morning and leave it in long Beach.  We'll they get him then?

Dan: they are trying their best. He's hacking everything to pick up your signal. But you don't have one so he'll probably looking high and low.

Me: pathetic.