gamer girl wildest dreams

Chris and mine wedding.

A skip ahead to Sunday morning.  It's my big day. I've got butterflies in my stomach and of course the normal questions why would this man want me type this.  Our wedding is at 12 pm and I woke up at 8 am. I  didn't sleep well. I think I finally fall asleep at 4 am. Me being alone in my own company isn't the best of my abilities. Because I tend to over think sometimes I hate the chaos that goes on in my own head. But when I'm with Chris it's like the chaos calms down a bit. I  eat some fruit for breakfast.  Because I know Chris would kill me if I ate nothing.  So some fruit would be good.  I go take a shower then get dressed so I can be at the venue at 9:30.

After I've got my shower and skin care taken care of. I head to my bags to get a pair of jeans and t-shirt and undergarments on. I look at the clock damn it's 9:15. I need to hurry. I throw everything on get my belongings and head down to the lobby. My Uber is waiting.  I get in and we head to the venue.  We arrive and it's 9:30 am. I  get escorted to my room. Where there is a hair and makeup artist and my dress and heels are waiting. I feel like Sheryl now. Lol I sit in the hair and makeup chair. My hair is super long so it's takes forever to do. Hair took an hour make up took half an hour.  It's 10:30 am. I need to be at my spot at 12. I have an hour an half to go. My butterflies is getting out of  control.  I keep trying to breath. I eat some crackers with cheese. Sheryl pops in.

Sheryl:  are you ok Renee?

Me: nope. But I'm trying to be.  Can I talk to Chris for at least 5 min. I don't want to see him it's bad luck. But I just want to hold his hand behind a door.

Sheryl: I'll go get him.

She walks off to get him. I hear a knock at the door. Sheryl walks in.

Sheryl:  Chris is holding the door open.

I see a hand hold out. I rush over to hold his hand. My butterflies and heart starts to calm down. 

Channie: hey my baby girl you ok?

My head rest on the door.

Me: I am now.  I'm just in a Lil panic mode no worries.  Before you ask no it's not cold feet. I laugh.  I  just needed you for a Lil bit to calm me down.

Channie: did it work?

Me: yes babe it did.

Channie:  it feels weird to talk to you through a door. He laughs.

Me: I  know right?

Channie:  it's 11 am baby girl. We need to get dressed.  I'll see you soon my wife.  He kisses my hand.

I kiss his back. He shuts the door and the hair and makeup artist and Sheryl held me in my dress. It's tight and skinny dress with the color white fading to red at the bottom with a black corset. Traditional colors of stray kid's.  It's 11:50. I hurry and take my spot.  Everyone is waiting for me.  The wedding has white,  red and black flowers on everything.  I hear the music playing.  The butterflies are back damn it. The curtains pull back and I stand at the door I see Chris and he looks hot. His face lights up to see me. I walk down the aisle.  I keep my eyes on him it helps me to keep calm. I'm at the end of the aisle Chris takes my hand. We face each other.  We're both lightly shaking.  But we're both smiling.  His family and friends are here. My sister is here. I'm wearing my necklace urn around my neck that has my mom in it. We say our vows and then the minister says you are now Mr and Mrs Chan Christopher Bang. You may now kiss your bride.  He kisses me. Then we get to the ballroom.  We have our down to our favorite music.  Then it's time for the food. Chris has his favorite lamb and I ordered my seafood. We all eat. Then it's cake Time.  We cut the cake.  Everyone gets served. Sheryl and Hyunjin gets up and hugs and kisses us bye so they can continue their honeymoon.