gamer girl wildest dreams

Illinois

It's 7 am in the morning. Everyone is up and getting ready to head to the airport.  I get a tablet.

Channie:  are you sure you wanna do this?

Everyone looks worried. 

Me: yep. I'll be fine. I've got Dan. You guys head to the airport I'll be there.

Channie: Dan please take care of her.

I.N:  yes please take care of Noona.

Dan: I'll protect Miss Osborne.  Now when we get there you'll power up the tablet. You'll connect it to Starbucks Wi-Fi then we'll toss it in the dumpster.  We will be booking it to the airport. 

Me: I  understand Dan. Been there done that. But this time I have someone with me. 

Dan: we must go now Miss Osborne. 

Me: OK.

I'm shaking. 

Everyone hugs me.

Channie: I'll see you at the airport babe. Don't worry about your luggage I'll take it with me.

I stick the tablet in my backpack. 

Me: later Everyone love you all.

Channie: we all love you too. 

Me and Dan head down to the car to head to long Beach it's a almost 26 minute drive.  We get there in no time. 

A Little while later.  We get to the closest Starbucks.  I turn the tablet on connect it to the Wi-Fi.  Jake automatically starts hacking. I throw it in the dumpster and we head off to the airport. 

Dan: see the undercover cops their waiting for him.

Me: just get me to the airport please.

Dan: driver you heard her. Step on it.

The airport is 45 minutes away.

I  text Chris.

Me: hey babe. I'm heading your way. Everything is done.

Channie:  good baby girl. We are here waiting for you. 

Me: the driver is speeding there. Lol.

Channie:  he better be careful with my girl in the car.

Me: we're making good timing. Dan said we'll be there in 15 minutes. 

Channie: it's a 45 minute drive how on earth are you going to be here in 15.

Me: the American way of travel my dear. Lol

Channie:  ah yes you all don't follow laws here.

Me: that's not true. We just get around the law. The cops are busy anyway with Jake so we're fine. See you soon.

Channie:  see you soon babe.

Meanwhile we arrived at the airport.  The car comes in like a bullet and stops. 

The boy's are there. I  get out of the car.

Me: damn that was fun. Woooooo.

The boy's looked shocked. 

I.N: Noona you actually enjoy that?

Me: oh I.N speeding is illegal in the US but we still do it and yes driving fast is fun and a rush. I laugh.

Channie: let's not do that anymore please babe.

Me: ugh yes Sir.  We head in get everything checked and get ready to board the plane. 

Dan: Miss Osborne. Jake showed up at the coffee place but saw the cops and took off fast. They are trying to track him now.

Me: OK. I hope they get him.

We take off to Illinois.  It's a 4 hour flight. 

Channie:  you need to eat babe.

Me: I'm fine baby it's only 4 hour's. 

Channie: yes and it's your favorite time a day brunch.  So eat.

He hands me the menu.

Me: fine.

I tell them my order.  And hand them the menu.

Channie: the staff wants to know our order's at the hotel.

Me: you guys really enjoy eating.  I laugh.

Channie:  I'm a growing boy. I'm five. He Laughs. 

Felix zooms by really fast and says

Felix:  and I'm 3 years old. He smiles and Laughs.

4 hours pass by. We're in Illinois. 

Lee know:  Renee home. 

I sarcastically say.

Me: yay. Ugh it's where I was born and raised but not my home. It's just a place to me.

Lee know:  wouldn't you like to see your sister and brother. 

Me: no they wouldn't care.

Channie:  CALL THEM NOW.

Me: fine when we get to the hotel. 

Channie:  you better put it on speaker so we can hear.

Me: damn for real.

Han: their the only family you've got. Even if your fighting.  You been in Korea for a long time thing's could have changed.  The fire could have died down. 

Me: doubtful.  But I'll try.

We arrived at the hotel.  We all get a family size room that fits all of us.

We get settled in. 

Channie:  Renee call.

Me: you're being persistent. Fine.

I call my sister Stacy

Stacy: Renee? 

Me: yes it's me sis.

Stacy: omg I've missed you.  Are you ok?

I  look at the boy's weird.

Me: yes sis I'm fine. I'm back in the state's but leaving soon. You wanna come see me?

Stacy: yes please. 

Me: how is our punkass brother?

Stacy: still an asshole as ever.  He's not going to change you know this. 

Me: so I shouldn't call him?

Stacy:  nah let the asshole be. But I'll be there. 

Me: OK see you soon.

We hang up. 

Me: please don't make me call my brother. 
Han: from what your sister said nah I wouldn't. 

Lee know:  I second that. No brother.

Me: thank you.  1 out of 2 isn't bad. I wish my other brother was alive he would come.

I feel  a  tear come from my eye.

Me: sorry. Didn't mean to get emotional. 

I straighten up and choke my tears down. 

Felix:  why do you do that?

Me: what?

Felix: shut your emotions off.  Like your emotions doesn't matter to your own self.

Me: it's always been my life. I was raised with my mom. She was brought up in a military family. So she kinda pushed her up bringing on me. Stay strong when really your broken but stay strong anyway. Emotions  was a sign of weakness.  That's the part of being strong.  In a nut shell I'm fucked up and still trying to learn how to not be like I was raised.  But old habits die hard.