Our destiny

She doesn't stop

I slept great. I dreamt about Ellie and cuddled with her the entire night. In the morning I wake up because of some very weird noises. I don't even get what they are. They sound like breaths or moans. What the hell?

I slowly open my sleepy eyes. That is when I realise it. Ellie wasn't next to me. It was Kate. She is laying next to me completely naked. I cuddled her naked body the entire night. I want to move away. She is moaning. That were the sounds that woke me up. Her legs are spread and she holds my hand between her legs. My finger is inside her and she swiftly moves my hand back and forth making my finger move in and out of her. I want her to stop. I don't want to touch her like this. I want to pull my hand back but she tightens her grip.

"No. Stay like this. I'm about to come." She says. I don't want her to come with my fingers inside her. She must have been doing this for a while. She used my hand to pleasure herself when I was still sleeping. I never wanted this. This is not my fault.

"Stop it. I don't want to." I harshly move my hand back and finally free myself from her grip. I pull my hand away and she looks at me a bit angry.

"No. Come back here. Touch me again. I want you to make me come." She says.

"You are crazy. This is abuse. You used me for sex while I was sleeping. I didn't want to." I scream at her and move away.

"Leah, are you kidding me? You cuddled me the entire night. I came into your bed and you cuddled me. I didn't do anything." She says. I was already half asleep and thought she was Ellie.

"I was sleeping and dreaming and thought you were Ellie. I don't want to do anything with you. I don't love you. Don't you get that?" I scream at her and get up. I immediately go to the bathroom to wash my hand. My finger was inside her. Inside another woman. I need to do something but I don't know what. This is so embarrassing that I don't really want to tell anyone but I have to. I can't let this continue to happen.

I go back out and Kate is still naked in my bed. She looks up at me and I immediately look away. I don't want to see her naked again.

"I won't sleep here anymore and I will tell Sarina." I say.

"What do you want to tell her? That you kissed me, you held my body during the night?" Kate throws at me.

"No. That you kissed me without my permission after that match at the Emirates. That you used me for sex while I was sleeping."

"You really want to go and tell our coach that I made you have sex with me?" She laughs a bit. I am scared of telling Sarina because it sounds ridiculous but I have to do something.

"Yes because what you did is not okay and if you would really love me then you wouldn't have done it."

"I just wanted to show you what you could have. You don't have to make it so complicated. You are single. I'm here. I'm naked in your bed. You can't run after your ex wife all your life. You will have sex with other people so stop acting like I abused you or something. Better be grateful that I want to help you forget about her. I can make you forget about her. Come here and we forget about her together." She says. What is wrong with her?

"I don't want to. I just don't want to. That is my choice." I yell at her and just storm out of the room. I can't listen to any of what she says anymore. I'm so angry right now that I make my way straight to Sarinas office. I hope she is there.

I don't even knock. I just aggressively open the door. Sarina looks up at me and gets surprised as she sees me. I should have knocked.

"What happened to knocking and saying hello?" Sarina says.

"Sorry. I'm sorry. I was just really angry. I need to talk to you." I quickly say.

"Okay please sit." Sarina says. I think she realised that this is serious. I close the door behind me and sit down at Sarinas desk. I don't want to tell her but I have to. I need to sort this out.