Breaking free

Episode 16

" Don't touch me and I don't want to hear your pathetic apology, open.your.mouth.and.explain" He enunciated his words.

I just have to come clean, maybe if I do, he will let me go.

" I just wanted to know where you were that day so I asked Najah to help me find out, it was supposed to be innocent please" I pleaded with him, I didn't want to throw her under the bus, even if all the blame will go on me, at least maybe he won't tell me that I can't go to her house or see her.

" So you asked her to spy on me?" He said and I nodded.

" ok so what about the job or whatever it is your doing?" He tilted his head questionably.

I kept quiet because I knew he would get more angry about this because he told me no and I still did it. This one is actually my fault.

" Hameedah open your mouth, this is the last time I'll tell you" he warned me.

" Kamilla's boss was in need of an IT specialist and she recommended me not knowing that you didn't like the idea of me working because I told her that you agreed" I whispered the last part but I'm sure he heard me.

" She talked to her boss and I got the job" I said

" How do you do the job, do you go there?" He looked at me intensely.

" I umm do it at home and go there" I replied.

" How many times have you been there?"

" once" I said truthfully and he nodded

" what excuse did you tell me when you went" He asked and I kept quiet but spoke up.

" The day I went to that tafseer" I said and looked at the ground.

He kept quiet for a while then spoke

" Let me get this straight, you used your friend to do something you knew your husband wouldn't like and put her in your marital problems, you lied to your own family member and sneaked around your husband's back to do something he didn't want, then you lied with Going to an Islamic centre just to do the thing that your husband banned you from doing right?" I nodded because if I didn't, hm.

He cleared his throat, nodded and left the room.

He came back later and towered over me and I stumbled a bit.

"You have lied to me several times so now you need to face the consequences" He said and instantly held me up by the collar of my dress and whipped his hand across my face.

I backed away shaking my head trying to get away.

He punched me so hard that my vision went completely blurry.

I lost my balance and fell to the floor gripping my jaw to where the impact landed. It burned, somuch I felt I dislocated it.

He hit me so many times I couldn't count because I was half awake at this point.

After a few minutes, he seemed to have calm down and I was on the floor in my own blood, my vision was blank, my mind was blank, my thoughts were blank, everything was just blank.

He frantically paced around the room and picked up a glass vase and smashed it in the floor and cursed.

In a panicked frenzy, he tried to touch me while apologising to me. I had enough energy to shrug off  his arm on my body. He left the room in a hurry.

I couldn't cry anymore,the tears where no more, I just sat there looking straight ahead and wasn't saying anything.

He came back in the room and I was still on the floor.