let it go
it's okaylet it go?
it's okay?yes, let it go
it's done
it's goneand that is a beautiful thing
trust meloving you is a gateway drug
i can only love you when it's not love
when i become
under
the influence of
a moment
a memory
a lie
a deceptioni don't believe we were ever meant to be
and all of my scars are left peeling
so i found a moment of healing
that may not seem like that at allhe knows me
he knows how to find mehe finds me in my depths
some days i get low
i want to die
i get depressedhe finds me
in the darknessit's sad
because he shouldn't have to look so far for mebut i can often ignore my actions
until my life is crumbling
it isdisgusting
i'm on a roadway straight to hell
i pray everyday
but i feel like nobody hears mebut God heard me
he tests me
and i never fail
who will i choose?
HIM or hymn?
HIM or he?
HIM or me?
i surrender it all
every single thing
i need prayer
i need rebukingi need love
i need offeringi need becoming
i need joy
i need Godi need him
not mei need him not he
i need himi need HIM
i know
i want to hate myself for my actions
but he knew how to help mehe knew my heart
he knew the weak spots
he knew how to get mei felt nothing
God still protects mei'm not crazy
i'm just hurt
he will heal iti promise you
HE CAN HEAL ANYTHING
i am not broken.
i am not broken..i am not stupid
i am not a slut
i am not fat
i am not ugly
i am not unloveable
i am not crazy
i am not less thani am God's child first
i didn't forget
i won't forget
i will never forgettrial by trial
i will never forget
i will never forget how he saved me once
he will save me again
he will save me again
he hears me
he hears the cry of the weak
and the call of the meek
my tears are not in vain
today
and foreveri will call out his name
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