My Love From The Stage

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

His past

"Walang namamagitan sa amin ni Amy." Seryosong aniya ni Dj. I scoffed.

Pakialam ko ba kung may mangyayari sa kanila o hindi?

"I don't care if there's going on with you two or not." I said, really not caring about what he said.

Akala niya ba aasa nanaman ako ro'n? I've had enough already. He already damaged me so much that I do not want to be with him too.

"Ginagantihan mo lang ba ako? Is this your way to make me guilty on pushing you away?" He asked, confronting me. Natawa naman ako sa tanong na 'yon.

"What made you think that I would make you feel the same way you did to me?" Mahinang tanong ko dahilan ng pagkatigil nito.

Huminga ako ng malalim.

"Hindi naman ako nananakit na tulad mo, I would not say anything that would make you think if you did something wrong! Or something worst, or make you think that I am just trying to talk to you and push you away afterwards!" Bumilis ang pag hinga ko sa mga sinabi ko.

Hindi siya makapagsalita dahil totoo naman ang mga sinabi ko.

"I never treated you wrong. If you think that my doings are not in your taste, you should have approached me politely, oo hindi ako titigil pero pakiusap lang ng maayos alam ko naman." I trailed off.

"I'm sorry." Paumanhin niyang muli. Nakayuko at nakakuyom ang kamao.

I was taken aback at his sorry. Hindi ko inaasahan 'yon sakaniya.

"Pushing you away is the only thing I can do to stop this, ok? You already know what happened kaya bakit mo pa gustong pumasok sa buhay ko?" Tanong niya at tumingin sa akin.

Sumakit ang lalamunan ko. Parang may nababara at ayaw akong mag salita.

"Angel must have tell you everything already. About me and my family. So why would you still want to?" Umawang ang labi niya.

Rinig na rinig ang aming paghinga. Gustong-gusto ng mga sagot pero natatakot mag tanong.

"I already told you. It's because I like you." Finally, I said something. He nodded because he knew that already. 

"You only like me but you're already doing this. And I still don't want you. I want you to stop this feelings of yours. Huwag mo ng palalimin-"

"Kaya nga lumalayo na ako 'di ba? You're the one who's making this difficult for me to move on. Alam mo kasi na isang sorry mo lang bibigay na ako, eh! Isang sorry mo lang wala na, sa'yo na ulit ako." Kinagat ko ang pang ibabang labi ko.

He did the same. Like he is trying to stop himself. Nagtaka ako ngunit hindi matigil ang kabog ng puso ko sa kaba dahil sa mga sinabi ko sakaniya.

Umalis na ako. I cannot stand the tensions between us. At ang kabog ng puso ko ay hindi parin matigil.

Hanggang sa makauwi na ako. Kahit papaano ay napakalma ko naman ang puso ko. That's our first time talk that made me feel nervous, angry, happy? A sudden mixed emotion.

"H-hindi ko alam, kung kailan sumusuko na ako, bakit doon naman siya bumabalik? I hate it!" I told Keycy. I invited her because I want to let this feelings of mine go!

"It's just because he likes the chase. He likes you chasing him." She rolled her eyes. Tinitignan ang kaniyang mga kuko.

"Matagal-tagal ko na din siyang iniiwasan, eh. Because I know for sure! Na makakalimutan ko na siya! Na one day hindi ko na siya gusto! Pero ba't ang hirap?" Desperadang tanong ko at pabagsak na umupo sa gaming chair.