the guilt for not studying enough
for spending money on myself
for having a better status than most
for glancing away to every homeless person i see
and for not handing them all of the money i have in my pocket
i think i have been using guilt trip on myself
for the past few years
and i think i may have romanticized this parasyte
as a method of survival
but if so, then i think it's alright
i can stay this way
this guilt I've been holding on
is the confirmation that the "psychopath bitch" they've been calling me is not real
this guilt let's me rest assured
that i will never grow up like my narcissistic mom
as long as i have this guilt,
my humanity remains
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Poesía𝑰 𝒂𝒄𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔, 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒐𝒄𝒆𝒂𝒏 𝒘𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒔 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒆𝒎𝒊𝒕; 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒍𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒃𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒚... 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕. A collection of poems...
