the guilt for not studying enough
for spending money on myself
for having a better status than most
for glancing away to every homeless person i see
and for not handing them all of the money i have in my pocket
i think i have been using guilt trip on myself
for the past few years
and i think i may have romanticized this parasyte
as a method of survival
but if so, then i think it's alright
i can stay this way
this guilt I've been holding on
is the confirmation that the "psychopath bitch" they've been calling me is not real
this guilt let's me rest assured
that i will never grow up like my narcissistic mom
as long as i have this guilt,
my humanity remains
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PoetrySee what the young poet wrote in her old journals at only the age of twelve, and how her mental state progressively gets worse at age fifteen:) Collection of poems mostly about God, family, love, and hate to oneself. • most impressive ranking: #6 in...
