Dazed Off

half-assed

i find it ridiculous
i keep talking about life and death
as if i know anything about it
as if i experienced any of it

my life consists of pretend-breaths, half-assed exchange of inhales, inhales and inhales

and cowardness kills me more than actually killing myself

but I don't understand
how can someone even die without ever being alive

i think
i am just making a fool out of myself