Dazed Off

mom and dad<3

As a child of attended violence
and intended neglect

Doubt visits me more often than love does

Mom never understood why I will wear sleeveless dresses tommorow, and baggy jeans the day after,
And next week it's even both
She asks me if fashion is something I gave up with,
because what I wear is all over the place
As if it's never an expression
As if it's never a reflection

And dad never understood why I chose mom -to be with the person who both hit me and curse me,
He thinks he's better because his right fist is my only enemy
not his genuine heart
He asks me if family is something I gave up with,
because my decision led us all away from each places
As if her and him was that easy to pick
As if both was a valid answer

As a child of mistaken lovers
and rushed adulthood

It is not that easy to look for my future;
don't I even have one to look for?
moreover I've been in the past for so long

See, it is not easy to leave here,
It is where my family are
Even though I hate them with all my might,
I do love them just at the same time

A/N
i miss all of you
there's this thin line of love and hate
and it's all jumbled up to tell apart