Exploring myself means knowing every parasite
every bad comment a teacher gave,
every "could've" that couldn't happen,
every little mistaken gift of love
Exploring myself means missing you
it means fiding another problem to fix,
it means never ending the fixing routine,
it means hoping for enough recovery but longing for eternal rest
Even if it means not in your arms
and only in blue sea
I've already sunken so deep
maybe this is all I can get
that I can't revive what I lost
and I'll never fully know what I lost
explore me as I desire a despair,
and I'm desperate for a downfall
I desire to drown in my sorrow
make an ocean out of it,
to call it my own paradiso
and bury life in the lowest point of living
Give little Ms. me what she have always wanted,
to throw away all the dreams–
the pep talks,
therapy session,
motivational quotes
Be a little selfish and breath
for the first and last time
Say goodbye and mean it
YOU ARE READING
Dazed Off
Poetry𝑰 𝒂𝒄𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒎𝒏𝒆𝒔𝒔, 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒐𝒄𝒆𝒂𝒏 𝒘𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒔 𝒘𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅 𝒆𝒎𝒊𝒕; 𝒃𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒖𝒓𝒆 𝒍𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒃𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒚 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒔𝒊𝒎𝒑𝒍𝒚... 𝒅𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒎 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕. A collection of poems...
