My life with Isaac Garcia

Chapter 32

It's been 2 days and I came home from my date with Jj. It's been 2 days and all I could do was stare at the book for hours and not open it. I couldn't get myself to read it cause I was scared what was inside. At one point I even thought about sneaking it back into the house without reading it but a part of me wanted to read it so bad. It gave me anxiety thinking about it. I went in the room and changed sitting on my bed and grabbing it staring at it again. Jj came in the room after me
"You still haven't read it huh" Jj asked
"I can't it's a invasion of privacy" I replied
"Baby i'm leaving in 3 days and i've tried helping your relationship with Isaac get back to where it should be but you're not helping much" He sat down
"That's not what normal boyfriends do" I laughed
"Our situation isn't normal. Nov you've been an amazing girlfriend these past few months and an amazing friend since we met years ago but it's time for me to leave and you to get Isaac back. I knew it was gonna happen and as much as I hate to say it I know you two are soulmates" He looked at me
"I don't wanna lose you J" I frowned
"If I had a choice I wouldn't leave. If this is meant to be we'll find our way back to eachother but I want to leave knowing you have Isaac. Plus you could never lose me fully and I wanna see you happy" He held my face up
I looked at him and kissed him softly
"As much as you try hiding it I know you're still in love with him and i'm okay with that because you never let it get in between us" He smiled
"I love you though" I looked at him
"I love you too Nov but you're not in love with me and that's okay" He replied
"What if it says something bad in it" I said
"Then you'll know. This will tell you everything and you won't be confused anymore" He said
"I can't read it" I said staring at the book
"How about we make a deal" He smiled
"What's the deal?" I asked
"If it says something bad we'll make us work and leave him out of the picture but if it shows he's in love with you I want you to go for it and be happy" He replied
"Jj.." I started
"Nov you said you'd do anything for me remember" He asked
I nodded softly
"I want you to do this for me then" He said
"I love you Jj" I said kissing him
"I love you too Nov" He smiled
I kept kissing him and got on his lap
"Nov your stalling" He said in the kiss
"Jj shush i'm tryna have sex with my boyfriend" I smiled
He looked at me with a stern look
"Please Jj. I could read after" I smiled
"Fine but i'm gonna sit here while you read it after" He laugh smirking

Me and Jj were out of breath and he looked at me. I rolled over and pretended to go to sleep and he got on me
"Jj get off me asshole" I yelled laughing and attempted to push him off
"Not until you open that book" He laughed
"Jj ima beat your ass" I yelled
"Nov seriously I gave you what you wanted now do me the favor" He said
"I did when I.." I smirked starting to talk
"That's not what I mean asshole"
"Fineeeee" I said
He handed me the book
"Can you get your fat ass off me now?"
"You think my ass is fat! I've been working on it for my hot girl summer" He said
I looked at him and we started laughing
"You're an idiot" I laughed
"I know but you love it" He replied
He got off me and grabbed my clothes off the floor and handed me my panties and his shirt. I looked at him confused
"Put them on im putting on my boxers and we're gonna sit here and i'm gonna hold you while you read it" He smiled
"You're amazing y'know that?" I said
"Of course I know that. I managed to pull someone who's perfect and way out of my league" He smiled
"I'm definitely not out of your league baby" I smiled
"You're perfect Nov" He looked at me
"Not really" I laughed
We put on our clothes and he laid down laying me in between his legs. I grabbed the book and started reading it

I hurt her and now I have to man up and watch her be loved by someone else. Yea it hurts cause she is my soulmate but i'll just have to live with the consequences forever. I'm gonna let her be happy and be with Grace but deep down in my heart Nova will always be the one I crave. I spend most nights crying for losing my one true love but I know I can't take back the hurt I put her through. Man Isaac you fucked this one up you broke your own heart playing with hers. You lost the one person who was perfect for you. The same girl who spent hours at the waterhole with you while you cried over your mom or your dad. The one who held you in her arms when your whole world was falling apart. You lost the person you planned your whole future with and now you have to watch her as she lives out hers with someone else. She'll never know how much you love her now
I started crying cause I never knew how bad he was hurting. I hurt him by not talking things out and this whole book was about me. When we first met, our nights skipping rocks at the waterhole, our first kiss, our first date, my trial, everything. I broke Isaac's heart... I hurt him
"Baby.." Jj said holding me
I cried for hours in Jjs arms he held me trying to comfort me. He ran his hands through my hair until I fell asleep crying.

Published June 5 2024