FEAR OF FONDNESS

Chapter 37 SUPPRESSED PAIN

Shinaya's POV:

"Just relax" Maryam tried to calm me. 

"Yeah, that's the payback time for that fucker!" Aqsa uttered, clenching her teeth.

"Shinaya," Mahnoor inquired as she was checking whether I was even there or not.

I pulled my head a little, my tears were not dried yet. my eyes were red and swollen. 

"Shinaya" Maryam uttered in a trembling voice, She was at the edge of crying. I broke into tears. She embraced me in a tight hug, and Mahnooor and Aqsa also joined. I wept, I cried bitterly. 

"I never wanted this, I never wanted this!!!" I cried in agony.

"I never wanted any of this," I uttered in a trembling voice.

"I_I am a fool, I am a damn fool" I cursed myself, sobbing.

"No! no! you are not," MAhnoor said sniffing. "You didn't know anything," Aqsa said wiping my tears. "Please yar na to,".

"What should I do?, he is marrying me because of his family pressure, I mean nothing to anyone," I knew my family had helped Kadars in their worst time and now they are just repaying their debts. 

"Why do you think that? Has he_" Maryam stopped while asking, maybe she was afraid that she would hurt me more, but i wouldn't had been hurt if she did asked me. there were no two opinions on why Wassal was marrying me...

"Don't think too much, maybe, maybe he is not as bad as you think" Mahnoor tried to convince me.  "Yeah, maybe he would be a really good man," Aqsa chimed in. "Yeah, you should hope for the best, don't be despair" Maryam added.

I wiped my tears, "You think I am being hopeless, you know very well, he is one of the best businessmen in the country, he has a repo everywhere, he is much mature than me, why would he like to marry an immature girl, a girl, a girl who doesn't even know, who to trust?" Once again tears left my eyes.

"He would never like to marry a clumsy college student! no one would!" I cried with hiccups.

"You are not a clumsy girl, you are responsible, if you wouldn't have then why would you agree to marry Wassal?" Maryam asked me holding my hands. 

"Yes, and if you wouldn't care then you would have just thought about yourself! but you care about your family," Aqsa uttered. "It_was_just_an_accident!" Mahnoor empahzied on each word. 

"If I_" Aqsa cutted me off, "No more ifs!" she declared.

"You are entering a new phase of your life, " Mahnoor said. 

"A new and better one!" Aqsa added.

"Inshallah, you will have a really happy life with him!" Maryam prayed for me. All three of them added "Ameen".

"Just relax yourself, and don't worry about tomorrow! Enjoy these moments you have, because these moments will never come again! " Mahnoor said holding my hands tightly.

"Yeah, worry about the yourself!, Oh my God, you need a complete saloon day! manicure, pedicure, daily massages, and_" Mahnoor broke her rhythm, "Sis, who will worry about the shopping? Shaadi ik hasftay mein hai bhai!" Mahnoor reminded.

"Likn yar, wo_" Maryam hesitated while asking something.

"What? " Aqsa inquired.

"Wo_mama , baba say kon pochay ga?" She uttered making an innocent face.

"ufffffffffff!" We all yelled in unison. When the environment changed I didn't know, they were all more than sisters to me, and they proved them a lot of times.