FEAR OF FONDNESS

Chapter 44 A TRAP

Shinaya's POV:

"How was the party?" He asked. "It was good," I replied with an enforced smile. "Did you enjoy it?" He asked. "Yeah, " I replied, trying to act normal. "Shinaya, anything happened there?" He inquired in a sincere tone.

"No," I replied shaking my head, "Did anyone say something?" He inquired knitting his eyebrows in confusion. "No," I tried to assure. The fold deepens, his tone was now drowning in anger as if he would just kill someone. "If anyone did, then tell me, I will_" I cut him off, "No, No no one said anything, it's just, there was, too boredom for me " I had to tell him or otherwise he wasn't letting me go." All of them were old money ladies, they were just talking about their parties, skincare, shopping, and about their kid's proposals and marriages" I told him in a surprising tone, which made a smile appear on his lips. 

All the time, I was thinking that what was in there to discuss, who would be interested in what I ate last night? how expensive the hotel I was staying at, and how many precious jewels I was wearing? But I was wrong they were all too much interested in this useless info. 

"So you did get very bored there?" He asked, with surety. "Yeah, I didn't have anything to tell them, I could only tell them which movie was on these days and which exam was the worst this year," I told him while laughing a little. He chuckled, he always laughed a very, very, very little, especially as compared to me, I was worst at controlling emotions.

"Well, you can tell ME that," He offered. "So which movie is in these days?" He said as he placed his arms on the table. There comes my turn. "Oppenheimer and Barbie are the most popular, but If you want to watch action movies, you can give a shot to Extraction, the John Wick series, and umm..." I begin to count on my fingertips. I didn't know how much I talked alone, he barely said three to four words and I gave I'm like a thousand words answer. 

I'm sick of myself, I always get out of control and  I felt terribly embarrassed as I realized later.

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"You will not go out, understood?" He told me in a tough tone. He was going out of the city for a week for some important office work. Thank god, he is not taking me, I thanked  Allah internally. I just nodded to his questions at first but then he gave me a deadly stare from which I remembered his last warning, I quickly covered, "I mean Yes, yes!". 

I wanted to ask why am I supposed to stay at home all the time. but I didn't dare to ask, I was never like this, but in front of him, I felt like knots forming inside my stomach. I wasn't even able to utter a single word properly in front of him. he looked cold, stern, dangerous...Besides this I had guessed, that maybe it was because of Zawaar's issue, they now had an open rivalry with them.

Before leaving, he cupped my cheek and kissed my forehead gently, "Take care wifey," He said with a timid smile and went out. I always felt a shock inside me whenever he touched me, but I had to tolerate it he was not touching me that way. It was confirmed that he wasn't happy with this marriage either.

As he was gone, I took a breath of relief, He is gone! I thought. A smile appeared on my face, I felt really, relaxed. All the time, I was with him, it was like I was sitting with a time bomb, he was too cold, too stern. From the first day of the wedding, he wasn't happy at all, I wasn't expecting any other thing either.

Now I am going to relax, I let myself fall on the bed, and I closed my eyes to feel the freedom.

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In the initial four days, I went here there, and there in Kadar's villa. It was more like a castle, it was too much big for a small family to live in. But it's their choice. The best thing I liked was their TV lounge as it was quite luxurious classical sofas, and also I loved the long chandelier dropping from the roof till down between the stairs. I was in love with chandeliers. especially crystal ones. And also, I loved their kitchen, It had beautiful finishings, and a beautiful oven, which meant I could bake anytime. I also spent some time with Ania, she wasn't too old but mostly stayed in hostels, I don't why, she was too young to be hostelized but again, I couldn't interfere.