FEAR OF FONDNESS

CHAPTER 60 WANNA BE YOURS

Wassal's POV:

The flight went like a trial, a trial to hold my nerves from getting outside. 

There was no hour in which I didn't call her. I knew she wouldn't pick up, but still, I was trying. I don't know where will our relationship go like this, I want her, I want her so much that it drives me insane. 

But will she ever love me like I do? A question echoed inside. 

No, it's not fair. I chose to love her, knowing she didn't love me. I knew it would hurt, It did so badly from the very start... then why am I asking for more?...

I felt a slight forward motion and a gentle bump, the plane had reached the runway. 

Even if you don't want to talk to me, I can not leave you like this.

As I reached home, the first thing to do was to search for her. 

"Welcome back sir," I heard vague voices of staff members as I rushed upstairs. I was not this rude not to answer anyone but now the only thing on my mind was her. 

I marched towards the door. As I opened it. She was sitting on the bed, binding her arms across her knees. Her head was on her knees.  But as she rose on the thud of the door, all of my rage vanished and tensity took over my nerves.

She had a bandage on her head...A bandage? What the FUCK happened!!

Her eyes were red, cheeks swelled and hair disheveled.

She was weeping...

She, WAS, WEEPING!

Blood raced across my veins, I rushed toward her. Cupping her wet cheeks, I realized she had a fever,  I asked, " What happened Shinaya?! " My eyes went across her bandage, my fingers touching it slightly, to which she grasped. My heart clenched.

Anger? stress? rage? What was it, I couldn't judge. 

Another tear escaped her eyes. I can not explain what type of storm her tears were summoning. My rage was getting more and more high. "Nothing!" She spat bitterly in a trembling voice. 

I can not tell how my heart shattered at that trembling voice of hers.

" Why you have come? were you bored with your project? or it was finished?" She asked wiping her tears. "Shinaya!" I said clenching my fist. 

" Who did this to you?" 

Her eyes were red, her jaw clenched. "No one!" She said amidst hiccups.

" Who, did, this, to you?" My blood roared in my veins.

Her expressions were angry like she wanted to spit out everything she had been storing in her. 

"Just tell me the names, Shinaya and I will tor_" Before I could complete she interrupted. " No one! no one did this to me !" she huffed. Sniffing, she wiped her nose which was already red. I didn't have any guess for how long she had been like this. " Actually, " She paused. "you did it!". 

Shock wrapped my head, "M_Me?" I inquired in shock. 

"Yes, you did it!" She spoke with an intensity. "And why are you back?" she said managing to stable her voice. "What made you come back now, you should have been there, your work needs you more, " She said and began to sob. A stream of tears rolled down her cheeks. She was crying with hiccups and my heart was burning into ashes.

I dragged myself closer to her. I endeavored to hold her hands. She tried to draw it back but I gripped them firmly. She didn't stop her efforts, she still tried to pull them away. At last, when she couldn't she gave me a death stare, which didn't have any effect on me.