FEAR OF FONDNESS

Chapter 40 RAGE N PEACE

Author's POV:

There were a lot of cigarette buts scattered all over the floor,  Abeera was sitting down at the side of her bed. Her eyes were red, dizzy, and full of hatred. The personality which was once filled with pride was now looking like it was humiliated abruptly. Her choice for Wassal was not even glanced at once, she was ignored and beaten over shinaya. The girl she hated the most, the girl she wanted to kill anytime she got a chance, was now prioritized over her on all levels. She was selected to be Wassal Ali Kadar's bride, A man known for his discipline, intelligence, and charismatic appearance. A man who every girl would want!

"What does she have?" She muttered to her self.

The folds on her forehead doubled, "What the fuck she has that I don't!" She muttered clenching her jaws.

"I'll burn her, I'll burn alive!" She yelled as she threw the glass bottle beside her to the wall. 

"She will pay for this! SHE CAN NOT TAKE MY PLACE! IT WAS MY PLACE! NO ONE CAN TAKE WHAT I WANT!" She shouted in her humiliation. 

"Abeera! Abeera beta darwaza kholo, Sweetie it's me your mom!" Her mother knocked multiple times, but she wsn't hearing anything but herself assumed humiliation.

"I don't want anyone! I want Wassal, I just want him!" She yelled clenching her fist and punching it at the floor, multiple times. 

She was getting jealous of her and jealousy has no treatment. She was jealous of her since her childhood, and this was due to her nature of "getting whatever I want!". She wanted him and now her best rival was leading her, this was against her self-built dignity.,

She was watching herself lost by that middle-class girl. She led her since their childhood because she always wanted to beat her which she was best at, she considered herself to be the best, and this was her biggest mistake. This mistake was converted into over-self-confidence by her own parents who never stopped her from anything, no matter good or bad.  The want of having Wassal was also supported by her mother, she always told her that she was the only one for that place. 

She screamed and threw all the stuff over her side tables and smashed everything that came in her anger.

She threw her mobile at her dressing mirror which caused it to fall into pieces, amidst this her mother entered her room, opening it with keys, "Abeera! Abeera!" She tried to hold her but she wasn't coming in control. At last, she held her tightly and embraced her in a tight hug.

"Mama! Why was she to win over me? I wanted to be on a scholarship, but she was chosen! I wanted to be in Tabulo, but she was chosen! I wanted to be on the basketball team but she was chosen! Now I wanted to Wassal but she was chosen! WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO BE THE PRIORITY FOR EVERYTHING!" She yelled in a resentful tone. 

"She is nothing, SHE IS NOTHING, I won't let her win THIS TIME!" She uttered grinding her teeth.

"I'll burn her!" 

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Wassal and Shinaya's POV:

I was continuously looking at the sky, like for half an hour or maybe above, but I was fading up of that, it was surprisingly relaxing, not the sky, the thought of her.

Tomorrow she will be mine, forever, the though always made me smile. She was a beautiful dream, a most beautiful dream of mine, 

The sky was looking empty, even though there were a lot of stars in it...maybe the sky wasn't empty, it was my mind, which was feeling empty. "Dreaming of wassal bhai?" Mahnoor whispered in my ear. They all were staying at my place till the wedding. I couldn't compete with her audacity, a smile appeared on my face. "Really?" I raised my eyebrows. 

"Yep," three of them settled around me. 

We watched the sky for a while, "You are not a skywatcher," Maryam said looking at me. I was not, I always thought about why people watch the sky and some of the lovey dovies also romanticized it, I never understood their logic. Today I was also watching the sky, but my reason for watching it was to distract my thoughts, but it had no results.

I was still watching the sky. " Shina, what are you thinking?" Aqsa asked tilting towards my direction..

"Nothing" I almost whispered, when my eyes were teary, I felt my throat stuck and I couldn't utter a word properly, it was weakness since childhood.

"Shina?" They called again. I was hearing them but I couldn't answer.

"Shina," She called again. And that was it, I broke into tears. A stream of tears started to roll down my cheeks.

I didn't look at them, I just placed my head on Mahnoor's shoulder, I wept and wept, silently. I could also hear Maryam sniffing beside me.

"You remember I was the one among us, who never wanted to get married," I remembered how I always rolled my eyes on these topics. I was pretty sure that I would definitely marry someone after my Masters. "But now I am the one getting married first!". I uttered with a sarcastic smile. I was weeping over my state. "I wanted to pursue my career, my dreams, but now I can't do anything! I am stuck!" Maryam grabbed my hand, "Who said that? You can be whatever you want! And you told me that your in-laws don't have a problem with your studies,"

"They don't," I verified, cleaning my face. "But what about him, he is a rude man, he is so strict, what if he didn't let me go?" I uttered in worry. "Yar you need to trust him, at least give him a chance, " Aqsa said rolling her eyes, she and Mahnoor were always tension-free ones among us. According to her, marriage was not a big issue, besides her enmity with Kadars, she was hoping for my great future, wow!

"Easy for you to say" I rolled my eyes.

"Oh come on, he saved your life, at least he is not a like that piece of shit" She was pointing towards Zaram. "Just hope for the best!" They all placed their hand over mine and uttered in unison. I smiled vaguely. "Ab shadi ke baad badal mat jana, ye na ho ke sara time Wassal bhai ka hi hojai!" Maryam narrowed her eyes with a naughty smile on her face.

"I will not!" I assured them smiling back. "crew?" Aqsa placed her hand on mine and glanced at both of them for answers. "CREW!" WE ALL REPLIED IN UNISON.

"Shinaya...

Shinaya Wassal...

Mrs. Wassal!" A wide smirk appeared on my face. 

"I can't wait anymore Mrs. Wassal," I muttered to myself. I glanced at my room, where already three of them were sleeping, I sighed watching them, "Cut it, after one day she would be sleeping here, with me!" I could feel a wide smirk on my face. 

"Bhabi ki yaad arahi hai?" Ahtasham inquired in half sleepy voice, observing me smirk. "Nahi, tujhay kis nay kaha hai, " I quickly vanished the smirk on my face and inquired. "Jhoot km bola kr, ik hi din rh giya hai shadi mein," Mustafa uttered with an arm on his eyes. I controlled my smile, "Daba ke kyun mukura raha hai, khul ke has lay!' At last Zaram also chimed in. Damn, they all were bloody good actors. "Bs kr day ab , ik hi din baki hai," Mustafa said glancing at me with one eye. " So ja ab" Ahtasham said going back in his posture.

Now who will tell them that I can't want to sleep without her anymore.