FEAR OF FONDNESS

Chapter 53 MELANCHOLY

Shinaya's POV:

It had been a week since my university started. It was all going well until mom told me that Sobia Api was getting divorced. 

I couldn't believe it, she married the man she loved but now...she is getting divorced, after a child...It was quite disturbing for me as I had already felt sad for her fortune, but now, I was scared...I don't want my life to be like hers, but the fact that was teasing me the most was that she had a love marriage at such a young age just to be with her love but what now? Miseries, pain, and divorce...

"Shinaya?" Sania Api's voice pulled me out of my thoughts.

"Yes," I said with a pressed smile, trying to hide my sadness.

"Are you okay?" She asked in a concerned voice.

"Yeah," I replied with a smile.

"You don't seem to be," She asked again. 

"No, I'm alright" I replied with a smile. to which she nodded understandably.

"how's your married life going with my Sher?" She asked with a smile as she placed her cup on the table.

"It's going well," I replied with a gentle smile.

"I hope he doesn't trouble you, does he?" She asked in a humourous tone narrowing her eyes. "No Api," I replied as I chuckled. Although he troubles me a lot but how can I tell you? 

He troubles me with his eyes, with his words, sometimes with his anger too but sometimes with his care also... 

"Wassal's life has changed a lot since you came!" she said warmly.

"Because of me?" I inquired in astonishment. Actually MY life has changed due to him.

"Yeah, you won't believe it, I saw him eating cake yesterday!" she said as she saw something impossible.

"Cake?" I asked in confusion, he eats cake usually, what's so special about that? I thought internally.

"Yes!" She said as she chuckled." he hated sweets, but yesterday, I saw him eating cake like he was in love with it!" She added. Yesterday, I baked vanilla strawberry cake, and he also praised it a lot. he never told me that he hated sweets. 

"You know he was a kind of serious man, he lived a black-and-white life, but you know," she said as she straightened her back." I have seen a lot of changes in him since you both have married," She told me excitedly.

"He really loves you shinaya!" She said as she squeezed my hand gently. She said it as she had known it for a long time.

"I know he has some anger issues, but trust me, he is a really nice boy," She added with an assuring smile and leaned back in her chair.

"How do you know he loves me? " I asked her casually shrugging my shoulders. I was curious. I didn't know all this time, and he never told me.

She smiled and asked me, "Don't you know he loves you?" 

I was confused how could she be sure, "I don't know," I told her." I never asked him," I shrugged.

She chuckled and stared at me for a while as if judging me from some angle. "Somethings are nor be told, they are to be understood!" She sounded the same as my friends, they also said that.

"Love is not a thing, that can be hidden for long, it shows off in various forms, like in care, like in help, like in protection!" she explained. Why does everyone have a Ph.D. in these things I don't understand it.

"I know he is not too expressive but trust me he loves you very much!" 

"You never felt it? " she inquired to which I paused for a moment. Maybe somewhere deep inside I thought it once or twice but I never believed it. I parted my lips first and then choosing the words wisely I answered, "I don't know, he cares about me, he helps me, he supports me, Is this love? "