FEAR OF FONDNESS

CHAPTER 57 SOLOVIGANT PART-1

Shinaya's POV:

It had been just a few hours since he left. I tried my best not to show him any clue of my sadness. Yes, I admit that I am sad. No matter what is between us, no matter how much we both hide things from each other, there is still a bond. A string, that binds us. 

One hour

two hour

three hour

After the fifth hour of changing postures and waking like an owl, I understood that I wouldn't be able to sleep at night. I pulled out the drawer took out the chocolate bar and started eating, knowing I wasn't hungry or craving for anything. It was a tactic, to distract myself. 

The sound of the clock ticking was getting louder and louder, getting on my nerves. There was a time in my life when I always wanted him to be out of this room, out of my life. 

I remember how delighted I was when he went on his Dubai trip for two weeks. I watched 5 different seasons in that time, baked 6 different dishes, and mastered them all. But now, it's only for a week, and I'm getting frustrated. I wasn't able to understand what was wrong with me, I woke up early, I went to university, I didn't skip any meals and I also prepared for my 3 quizzes, so why am I not sleeping? Thinking all of that I realized  I was chewing the same bite of chocolate for 5 minutes. Going for the next bite, I saw my fourth chocolate was also finished. The good thing was that I didn't consume many calories as Wassal was strict about his diet and he was concerned about mine too. He bought me several less sugar sugar-free chocolates like Lindt's, Choco Zero, and Lily's chocolates as they were sugar-free and tasted almost like a sweet one. He bought me different types of them to prove that they were better than sweet ones, and to an extent they were. I most like Salted ones and chocolate-coated almonds. But the sweet ones are my first love. So I can't leave them that easily. But I was trying and yeah, much of the credit goes to Wassal.

He placed plenty of them in my lower drawer. I placed some of them on the upper one so I may have a record of how much I had taken.

Considering the time and five wrappers I decided, No more chocolates for tonight, I sighed, which meant no more entertainment. I put all the wrappers back in the drawer and laid back again pushing myself to sleep reminding myself there was a lot of work to do the next day.

................................................................

" Are you okay?" It was the third time he had asked me this question.

"Yes, why are you asking again and again?" I inquired in confusion. I was a little tired due to incomplete sleep last night, but it was fine as due to all day in university I forgot that I was tired. "Because I don't think you are okay?" He said as if he was sure.  I was okay, nothing happened, but the way he said it made me unsure. "It's just your subconscious I'm fine," I said tracing my laptop's borders, thinking, am I not fine? "Okay, " he said in an understanding tone. "Then I'm going, I have to be in a meeting," 

" So quick?" The words slipped out of my mouth. But I didn't regret this time. It was really quick, he just barely talked for 5 minutes. He didn't respond for a second. I was waiting for his reply. "You want to talk more?" he simply asked. "Yes, I want to," I said. " I want to talk about," I pause realizing that I already have talked about everything. I told him about my whole day, even the uni drama. It was strange I didn't notice when I told him all this detail. " No, I just uh...nothing, " I knew there was nothing and I was surely disturbing him. "Just take care, see you soon," I said and wrapped it up. After I ended the call, I was surprised to see the call timer. My eyes just went wide.

53 minutes and 44 seconds. 

Really?

At night my mood was quite better as I knew he was coming tomorrow but I still ate another bar of chocolates, in excitement I guess.