Soulmates ✨

Chapter 81 - Vulnerability

At the resort:

The car stops outside the resort. It's an amazing resort near the sea. "Why are we here?" Elliot asks as they enters in. "To spend sometime together." Marco replies. Elliot smiles and follows him inside. They sits at a dining table and Marco orders the special dishes especially Elliot's favourites. There are only few people in here with their partners. "For Christ sake, don't tell me you booked a resort only for a dinner date!" Elliot looks at him. Marco chuckles. "No I'm not that crazy! We are spending a night here, that's why." he replies. Elliot expression changes and he looks away to avoid the eye contact.

The waiter comes with the foods and serves them. "OMG! you ordered all my favourite items? Are you serious babe?" Elliot cannot stop smiling. Marco holds his hand. "Obviously, after all you're my boss." he winks at him. "Shut up!" Elliot looks down blushing so hard. Marco clicks his pictures and posts it on their family group. Suddenly he notices that Elliot is not eating instead he's playing with the fork. "What's wrong? Are you okay?" he asks. "I'm fine, it's just... I'm.. babe trust me I'm trying my best to not to worry the thoughts are killing me again!" Elliot replies. Marco thinks for a second then kisses his hand. "I know it's hard but I want you to know that I'm always here with you okay? Take your time and please do share if you want any help." he says. Elliot nods then again starts eating.

After finishing the dinner they are now sitting in the beach barefoot. Elliot is resting his head on Marco's shoulder and sipping the red wine. Marco won't say it but he knows exactly what's going on inside his partner's mind. He just stares at him sipping his drink. Elliot is not at all sleepy but still he closes his eyes. "Do you wanna go inside?" Marco asks. "Hmm.." Elliot responses. They stands up and heads walks towards the resort hand in hand. Suddenly Marco's phone buzzes. "Uh.. baby you go inside I'll be back soon." he says and walks away. Elliot agrees but his hands are trembling. He takes a deep breath and enters the room.

A few minutes later:

Marco's eyes widens as soon as he enters in. Rose petals are spread all over the floor from entrance to the bed. The lights are off and only candles are there. Marco slowly slowly moves towards the bed and sees the most unexpected yet beautiful view in front of his eyes. Elliot is standing near the window wearing a bathrobe only and holding a candle in his eyes. His eyes are looking so pretty his hair oh my God the way it's flying with the air. The bed is also decorated with flowers.

Elliot approaches him putting the candle on the table. "What's this baby?" Marco comes back to his senses. Elliot takes his hand on his cheek. "I just.. want to make you feel good." he replies. Marco is too stunned to speak anything. His brain cells aren't working anymore. Elliot slowly takes off his coat and pulls him into a passionate kiss. "El!" Marco breaks the kiss. "What?" Elliot asks. "Baby you know you don't have to do anything if you're not comfortable with it. I just want you that's it." Marco replies. Elliot looks down sitting on the couch. His body language is enough to express everything. He wants it but he's also very scared.

Marco sits down holding his hand. "Baby I know what you are feeling inside. You don't have to do anything which scares you. I can understand baby." he says. Elliot looks at him with his soft eyes. "But Marco, I can't be like this forever right? I have to overcome my fear right?" he asks. "Yes but not like this honey. You're vulnerable right now and this is not the way." Marco replies. Elliot closes his eyes taking a deep breath. "Babe, I.. I can understand what you're saying. I know I'm scared of this physical intimacy and everything. But you know what? I want you to help me with this fear. I want you not only emotionally but physically also." Elliot says. He stands up holding his hand in his.

"Marco please make me pure again!" he says. He kisses his hand looking at him. "But El.." Marco tries to say. "Please babe. Since the day that devil touched me I didn't look at myself in the mirror. I still feel so disgusting babe. And I also feel so guilty..." Elliot cries. "Sshh! Don't say that word again! It wasn't your fault okay?" Marco says. "I know but still. That's why I want you to make me pure again. Help me to get out of this disgust and guilt please." Elliot says back. Marco blinks. His long eyelashes are wet still so pretty. "Are you sure?" he asks. "Yes I'm sure." Elliot replies.

Marco pulls him closer by his waist and starts kissing his lips. Elliot grabs his curly hair and slowly slowly Marco removes his own clothes. He then kisses Elliot's neck holding him gently. "Are you okay?" he asks. Elliot nods quickly. They break the kiss and Elliot takes off the bathrobe himself revealing his naked skin in front of his husband. Instead of looking at his body Marco looks at his eyes. "You're so beautiful my love." he says. "Hold me please." Elliot spreads his arms. Marco hugs him immediately. Elliot is shaking but he's still relaxed knowing he is with his man, his husband, his protector, his Marco and no one will hurt him again.

Elliot lies down on the bed pulling Marco on top of him. "Are you sure?" he asks. "I'm fine please continue." Elliot replies. Marco can sense the fear in his needy eyes so he steps back. He kisses Elliot's feet to take permission as well as to make him feel comfortable. "I'm ready." Elliot says. Marco looks at him and oh god that look is enough to give chills into his spine. Elliot blinks his eyes grabbing the bedsheet. Marco climbs off the bed on his knees spreading his legs. He again looks at Elliot to make sure he is okay. Elliot nods as a permission and Marco enters in him. Elliot gasps by the thrust and stares at him.

Marco is so gentle and he doesn't want to hurt him at any cost. Elliot slowly moans bitting his own lips. Marco leans down to kisses his neck. Elliot pulls him more close not leaving any space between them. "Tell me it's you, tell me you won't hurt me, tell me I'm safe." he mutters. "You're safe, and it's me El. You're safe and no one will hurt you." Marco reassures him. He slowly increases the speed and Elliot holds him tightly. He pulls him into a kiss as the orgasm hits. Suddenly he gets the flashbacks but for the first time he doesn't panic, instead he holds his husband tightly. Marco couldn't control himself anymore and cums inside him. Elliot gulps feeling that. "I'm sorry." Marco apologizes. "Don't be." Elliot kisses him. They stand up holding each other then enters the bathroom.

At midnight:

The couple is lying on the bed. Elliot is resting his head on his chest and Marco moving his fingers on his hair. They are still naked covered in the blanket. "How are feeling right now?" Marco asks. "Much better." Elliot replies. "Can I ask you something?" he looks at him. "Sure!" Marco replies. "Did I satisfy you babe?" Elliot asks. "What the fuck? What kind of question is this?" Marco gets irritated. "Sorry I just.. it was just a nonsense thought, I think I skipped my pills today." Elliot sits straight looking away. Marco turns him around grabbing his arm. "You're my wedded partner El not a prostitute! Our relationship is only about love not about anything else! Dare you to say that again!" he scolds.

"I'm sorry babe... I won't say that again I promise. Please forgive me." Elliot apologizes. "Baby.. I'm not mad at you because I know what type of thoughts come to your mind, I also went through this so I understand. The nonsense comments from the people and the flashbacks forced to think negative things and hurt ourselves." Marco replies. "Promise me baby you won't do anything or say anything wrong again please?" he holds his hand. "I promise I won't." Elliot hugs him tightly. "I love you El." Marco whispers. "I love you too.." Elliot says back.

Marco blows all the candles for safety and turns on the night bulb so Elliot doesn't panic. Marco helps Elliot to sleep. "You're loved and you're safe. No one will hurt you again." he whispers. Elliot falls asleep quickly then Marco closes his eyes.