Hopeless - A Powerless Fanfiction

Paedyn

It has been a week. A week since Kai professed his love to me. A week since I had been brought back to Ilya. A week since I've been made to be Kitt's bride

The bride of the son of the deceased king, that I had killed, the one that had branded me with a scar above my heart. Not just a scar, a reminder, a representation of who I am and what I am. Or rather what I am not. O for ordinary.

I haven't seen Kitt ever since last week in the court room, not unless you count my nightmares. The nightmares which forever haunt me, even when I'm awake, I dread going to sleep.

I haven't seen Kai either, I'm worried about him, although I know I shouldn't be, he's the enforcer and brother of the King, he knows how to look after himself. Me, on the other hand? I need to escape. I need to escape before the wedding. I need to find Kai an- 

"My lady, your presence has been requested for dinner tonight". My thoughts have been interrupted by Ellie, who had been my maid during the purging trials, I'm somewhat grateful Kitt made her my current maid as well.

"Thank you for letting me know, and please Paedyn is enough" I reply, as Ellie leaves the room, but my mind is still elsewhere fantasizing about escaping this damn palace. The fact that I'd been invited to dinner surprised me though, for the past week I'd been left to eat in my own room. Was Kitt planning something? I didn't spend much time pondering upon my question, I had to be ready within fifteen minutes.

I opened my armoire, there were many dresses, too many to count. All of them were different shades of green, except one, the dress Adena had made for me for the first ball, it was a beautiful silver hue, which glittered in the light, and matched the color of my hair, which just ended at my shoulders.

As I set my eyes on it, memories came flooding back, my eyes widened, and I couldn't help but gasp from the pain of it all. "Oh A, I'm so sorry" I whispered, knowing it would mean nothing. The image of Adena laying bloody in my lap with a branch in her back, pleading me to wear the vest she had made for me formed in my head. My eyes started to tear up at the memory, it would forever haunt me for the rest of my life, I could've saved her, if only I had been quicker, if only I had been better, if only I had been stronger. I couldn't even keep her promise, the vest she had gifted me with had been lost when I'd been captured. The least I could do for her is wear the dress she had stitched for me once again. 

Once I was ready, I stepped out of my room, my thoughts still lingering on Adena. Ellie seemed to have already been waiting for me. She and one of the guards who I didn't recognize escorted me to dinner. I'm already familiar with the palace, from my previous time here during the purging trials. Once we finally get to the throne room, we are met by two large doors, which the guard, who I assume is a brawny, pushes open.

At the dinner table I notice all of the seats are occupied, except for two. One of them is for me, the other for... Kai, he was the only other person who seemed to be missing. The other seats are occupied mostly by strangers, although there are a few familiar faces such as Andy and Jax. I take my place next to Kitt. The king. My betrothed. My soon-to-be husband.

His eyes meet mine as I sit down, he offers me a smile which doesn't quite reach his eyes, which I return with a fake smile of my own.

Pretend, that's what I told myself, to pretend. That damn word Kai and I had used to justify our feelings for each other, but that was not pretend, that was all too very real. Now I must pretend, if not for my life, then for Kai's life. I must keep my mask on, I must pretend to be in love with Kitt, no matter how much it goes against my every instinct.

Kitt's green eyes scan my body, drinking in every detail, as he runs his fingers through his dirty-blonde hair, his eyes look tired with dark bags underneath both of them, his expression darkens as his eyes land on my hands.

"It seems you aren't wearing the ring I proposed to you with, hm?". He whispers in a cold voice, so only I can hear him, which promises nothing but vengeance, vengeance for killing his father.

Only then do i realize my mistake, I had been too immersed in my thoughts about Adena that I had forgotten to slip the ring he'd given to me a week ago, when he had suddenly chosen to make me his bride, instead of killing me, I still wonder what he's going to do with me.

I never wore the ring when I was alone, it felt like betrayal, like I was betraying Kai, marrying anyone who wasn't him made me feel like a traitor, even if this marriage was being forced. I still haven't seen Kai, I hope he's okay, what if Kitt did something to him?

"Well, aren't you going to explain then, Paedyn?". he asks impatient for me to answer him.

I force myself to angle my face towards his, so I'm looking right into his eyes, his face is a perfect reflection of that of his father's face. It truly is concerning how much he resembles his father, the man who scarred me for life, the man who was responsible for Adena's death, the man whose blood I have on my hands. 

In my head I quickly come up with an excuse for why I hadn't been wearing the ring, "I'm so sorry Kitt, but I- "

My answer is quickly interrupted by the doors of the throne room opening. Everyone snapped their head towards the door. When I see the man who entered, I feel my heart skip a beat. He was okay, he looked just as I remembered him from a week ago. 

He was tall, with tanned skin and inky black hair, his troubled eyes are a stormy gray color. His eyelashes just as long as I remember. His high cheekbones are looking prominent and strong as ever. This was the man that had stolen my heart.