Hopeless - A Powerless Fanfiction

Paedyn

"This is ridiculous, you always take his side, every single time! Just because he's the only person similar to you, just because he's a wielder like you... I've survived in the damn slums of Ilya for more than half my entire life as an ordinary pretending to be a psychic, I think I know what I'm doing if you want to get caught along with-". Before I can continue the rest of my sentence, Kai lunges towards me in an attempt to subdue me, but I dodge with a sidestep and trip him over with my foot, he lands on the ground with a groan.

"Agh, Paedyn, you need to listen to us, we all need to stick toge-" 

I attempt to kick him in the gut while he's still on the floor, but he rolls over and sharply dodges it, while Mak attempts to charge at me, but I manage to evade his attack, although less gracefully than before. I then swiftly grab his arm and slam him into the ground, knocking him out, the sand comes up temporarily blinding me and causing me to cough, but within a few moments I can see again, but it's too late...

Kai is already up from the floor, and he's throwing punches faster than I can block, eventually causing me to stumble and collapse back-first into the sand, I attempt to throw myself back up but he kicks me in the chest causing me to fall back down, I don't bother trying to get up again, he'll just kick me back down again, instead, I just close my eyes and try to control my breathing and calm myself down, I can feel my heart beating in its chamber like a prisoner pleading for freedom, I can feel my lungs screaming for oxygen, my entire body aches, screaming for rest. 

"Have you calmed down yet?" His deep voice comes from somewhere a few meters from my feet, he sounds tired, I can hear him panting too.

"If by calmed down you mean, too tired to fight, then yes..." 

"Pae, I didn't want to do that, but you aren't giving me a choice anymore, it was either that or you run off and get yourself killed...because, although you wish for my downfall, although you wish for my destruction, although you wish for my death" he pauses for a moment as if trying to collect his thoughts as if trying to process his feelings, then he finally continues, his voice only a little more than a whisper "I wish for you... and only you"

My eyes snap open, "Wish for your death...?" I pause, that's what he thinks I think of him?

"Yes...I take back what I said, I didn't believe you when you told me that all your feelings were real, I refuse to believe that your feelings were real this entire time if you managed to do that to me, you broke my trust Paedyn, I can't-"

"Malakai...please, you have to understand-" my voice is so coarse from being out in the scorches for days, that I can barely hear my voice, I use the remains of my strength to sit up on my knees, and I see he's closer than I expected, his figure looming right in front of me, so I'm practically kneeling at his feet begging.

"Malakai, my feelings were real, surely there must be a way to prove that? I'll do anything!" 

His eyes narrow, his face remaining expressionless, he doesn't say anything for a few moments, as if pondering upon my question, and then he finally opens his mouth, "Anything, huh?"  

I nod my head vigorously, my mouth too parched to speak anymore, and he crouches down so that we're both at eye level with each other, he puts a rough hand under my chin and tilts it upwards so I'm forced to look at him, then he brings his mouth to my ear and whispers " Well, in that case, you can..."