Book of Us (MaColet)

CLARITY: XLI

COLET's POV

I woke up in the middle of the night panting, sobrang lakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko and I thought the events were true. I looked at my right side and I saw maloi peacefully sleeping 'huh nasa kwarto na ako?' I got closer to her and hugged her tightly as I cried.

"mahal kita loi, I'm sorry kung mas inuuna ko yung pagseselos ko kesa sa feelings mo.. I'm sorry for not listening to you uyab" that nightmare I had made me think na ang tanga tanga ko. I was like a baby crying for help and I realized na ako lang yung gumawa ng reason para lumayo siya sa akin that day

"it's okay uyab, I'll understand you no matter what" nagulat ako nung magsalita siya, her voice raspy and tired 'halatang pagod at biglaang nagising lang'

"Nagising ba kita? I'm sorry"

"No it's okay" she hushed me while wiping the falling tears in my eyes "why are you crying uyab?"

"I thought I'm gonna lose you" I felt a tinge of pain when that words slipped out of my mouth

"I thought ikaw naman yung naaksidente because of me, I saw your lifeless body flashed before my eyes, blood spilling everywhere as I held you in my lap. I can't scream kasi mas nananaig yung shock and trauma of losing you bit by bit until I felt my heart drop as you let out your last breath" mas lalong sumikip yung dibdib ko nung maalala ko yung panaginip and the feeling na ayaw kong mangyari yun in real life was inevitably strong

Maloi held my shaking hand and hugged me closer, the scent lingering coming from her was enough for me to stay calm.

"I'm just here" She hummed a song, the song we sang together when we first met under the tree. Na na nandito lang a song by bini but in a calm version, this reminds me that despite of not being perfect I'll always have her.

"How can I forgot?" I chuckled and napatigil siya sa pag hum

"forgot what?" tanong niya

"about that day, when you saved me"

"I saved you?"

"yes and you're always saving me uyab"

"when and how?"

"when I almost gave up in life but I found your book, when I saw you at my auntie's karinderya and put a smile on my face because of your clumsiness, when I saw you under the tree when I need an inspiration, when you change my viewpoint about amusement park and turned my fears into an excitement, when you turn my whole world into a beautiful canvass and put colors in it.. you're always saving me until it got to a point where all I do was all about you, it all leads to you loi"

"Maybe it was fate"

"it is?"

"I don't know but at some point I think it was"

"naniniwala ka ba doon?"

"As a writer I had been battling my mind what to believe, maybe it was true and maybe it was fantasy. Sometimes I dreamt of something uncanny, like I don't think ako tong sarili ko. Do you ever experience that? or do you ever feel that at some point?"

Sumakit yung ulo ko sa sinabi niya, it's just dawn pero she challenged me agad na mag isip ng malala. I didn't know na nakakunot pala yung noo ko and she was laughing hard at me kaya sinamaan ko siya ng tingin nung nalaman ko.

"baka"

"ha? anong baka? yung hayop ba?" she laughed even more kaya tinakpan ko yung bibig niya, baka kasi magising yung nanay ko madaling araw palang