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Chapter 38

Chapter 38

"Now are you sure that you are okay babe?" Earlier today Sophie came and picked me up from the hospital, she got there within the hour after she was called by the nurse. She took me to get some food and now she's just leaving my apartment after staying for a while.

I haven't told her the truth about what happened, I lied for a lot of it and just said I don't recall what happened. The nurse believed that I was robbed so that's the story I'm going with. I had to give a description of the man to an officer that came by the hospital so I gave the dullest description ever, only saying the colour of the jumper he had on. I knew that saying to much so the police would investigate would probably make Harry's life a lot worse with work and I really don't want that.

"Yes I'm sure Soph, thank you." I'm sat on the couch where me and Sophie have been chilling and watching tv for the past hour or so. Sophie is gathering up her stuff and heading towards the door.

"Okay babe, well I love you and you just call me if you need anything." She gives me a kiss on the top of my head before turning out of the door and leaving.

I got up off the couch to refill my glass of water. The house was silent and it made me nervous, a lot of stuff has gone in these past couple weeks to me and my anxiety has just heightened so much. When Sophie was here I felt okay but she's been gone thirty seconds and I'm already weary of everything. Part of me just wants to call her and beg her to come back.

I tell myself I am going to be fine a couple of times before turning around ans heading back to the living room. As I sat down on the couch my foot hit the plastic bag that was filled of my things from the day I was bought in. I picked it up from the floor and undid the zipper so I could get into it.

I pulled my phone out of it, I haven't been on it since we left the hospital because Sophie has just been such a good distraction I forgot about it. I switched it on as it was turned off completely. As soon as it turned on my phone lit up with all of the notifications I had missed over the past couple of days. There were a few from Instagram and my calendar but my heart sank when I saw the numerous missed calls from Harry.

They were all from four days ago, the day I went to the mall. He must have been told something was wrong so he tried to get hold of me. I really hope he didn't think I was ignoring him. I stared at his name for ages hoping maybe he would call again. I miss hearing his voice.

I miss him.

When the nurse told me that he had come to visit me I was truly shocked, I thought he had forgotten about me but when she said he stayed for hours all I wanted to do was smile. He must still care about me as much as I still care about him. I don't hate Harry, I hate the way he made me feel. I still care for him so deeply and it feels nice to know he must care too.

I don't know what made me do it, but I pressed on his name and my phone and it began to ring. I didn't expect him to answer, he hasn't answered any of the calls I've made to him during the time we've been apart. The phone continued ringing, I thought it was on the verge of going to voicemail before I heard the voice I've been craving for so long.

"Hello?"

I paused, I felt like all the oxygen had been drained from my body when I heard his deep mumble.

"Briony?"

Him saying my name felt like I had one the lottery. "Hey Harry." There was a short silence and tears starting brimming my eyes. All I've wanted is to have a conversation with Harry since he left and now it's finally happening I'm basically speechless. "I've missed hearing your voice."

He took a deep breath before speaking. "Me too bri."

I wanted so badly to bring up him seeing me in the hospital but I also wanted to see if he was going to say anything. I didn't respond to him so there was a long silence held out between us. It didn't feel awkward, we both just don't know what to say to each other. I sat and just listened to his small breaths on the other side of the line.

"I miss you." I broke the silence.

"I know briony, I miss you too but you know we can't be together." I let the tears run down my face. I don't really understand how I feel but I know I just want to see him. Even if it's just for a couple of minutes.

"I just want to see you Harry." I tried my best to speak through the tears. "I just need to know that you're okay."

"I'm okay baby, please don't cry." He sounded so stressed but he stayed calm to talk to me. "It's not good for either of us to be together, you know this."

He really didn't sound angry he just sounded like he wanted me to actually listen to what he was saying. And that I was doing. I listened to him say we can't be together which broke my heart once again. But I also listened to him call me baby which just makes me want him more.

"Please Harry, just for a while?" I hardly ever beg, but I would beg for him a million times over.

"Briony, you're making this hard on yourself."

There was nothing to stop the way my heart was breaking. I felt myself almost hyperventilating, this is really him saying goodbye for good. "You never have to see me again after, please Harry. You can just come over for a bit then leave and forget about me again."

"I could never forget about you Briony." He whispered. I couldn't speak, my crying has just taken over my entire demeanour. There was another small silence between us. The only sounds being my tears and Harry's deep breathing.

"I'll be over when I can Bri, just please get some rest." The phone ended and I felt lighter. He really was coming over.

Short chapter I know sorryyyyyyy.