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Chapter 40

Chapter 40

Waking up this morning I had no idea how I felt. My body felt warm wrapped up in Harry's arms, our legs intertwined. There was no possible way for us to be any closer. But I still feel so distant from him. I'm still in shock that he turned up last night and in even more shock about how it ended. I'm not really sure how to explain last night, I didn't even want to have sex with Harry until I kissed him. All I wanted last night was to see him and get some answers, but I didn't get much of that.

Harry is still asleep on his side. Our legs are locked and his arms are wrapped around my waist so there was no way I could get out of bed. I didn't mind though. I love just watching him sleep because he looks so peaceful. He doesn't have any stress when he's asleep about his job, college and me as he keeps saying.

I was leaning over him resting my head in my hand that was propped up by my elbow. A bit of Harry bed hair was coving his face so I used my other hand to tuck it behind his ear. I started to stroke his head and just stare at him. I'm in awe of this man, I just wish he had the life he wants and not the one he's forced.

"I love it when you do that." He mumbled in his morning voice.

His eyes slowly opened and I felt the heat rising in my cheeks. I quickly removed my hand from his face and rolled over in embarrassment. I pulled the covers up over my face because my face that was definitely the colour of a tomato.

I felt Harry stretch and laugh when he noticed what I was doing. My back was too him to he tried to pull me back to face him. I didn't want to face him with how I currently felt.

"What are you doing bri?" He giggled trying to pull the covers off of my face.

"I thought you were asleep!" I yelled into the covers.

Harry laughed even more, I felt his head rest on my shoulder as he tried to compose himself. "But like I said I love it when you do that, so I'm bloody happy I was awake."

Uhg, he melts my heart.

Harry tugged at the covers fully down over my face and led over me. His hair fell in front of my face so I pushed it out of the way. As I did I got a perfect view of the alarm clock on my bedside table. It not only shows the time but the date as well. I leaned a bit forward to see that date and it read: 24th December 2015.

I shot up causing Harry to fall back to his side of the bed. "Oh Harry it's Christmas Eve!"

"Oh wow, this month has gone so fucking fast." He rubbed his forehead with his thumb and index finger.

Normally for Christmas I'll wake up here alone then head over to Sophie's for dinner. They are so welcoming to me over Christmas and I really appreciate it. However this year they are spending it in Australia with Sophie's grandparents so I was just going to chill and watch movies all day then end my night with a takeaway.

"What are you thinking about?" Harry can always sense when I've got a million things running through my head and he usually knows how to stop me from going into overdrive. That's just one thing I love about him.

I don't know what made me ask but the words were leaving my mouth before I had time to think about them. "Harry will you stay for Christmas?"

"Huh?"

I hate word vomit.

I shuffled back on the bed resting my back on my head bored. I looked down at Harry who was still lead flat on his back. "I know I said last night you never had to see me again after last night but would you spend Christmas with me? I'm going to be here alone and I'd love to spend it with you.... Then you definitely don't have to see me again if you don't want to."