Behind the Scenes

Chapter 35

Mikha's POV

I tried to be normal after what happened that night with A. I'm glad that my sister Pat, called me so I have my reason to leave her condo. I don't know, I'm hurt but how can I let this out if I'm loving her secretly? I'm not entitled when it comes to her seeing someone else. I'm just.. I don't wanna think of what I am to her. Friends.

I feel like I'm not myself for the past days but I need to be the Mikha they need in taping. She is always reaching out for me but I opted to replied like I'm not interested.

Tama na muna yung sakit na nararamdaman ko, ayoko muna madagdagan if ever man ano yung kahinatnan ng usapan. Ayoko muna malaman, I'm afraid I cannot handle another heartbreak.

Funny, we're not even together yet I'm acting like she's been cheating on me.

I'm not even sure if I can face her now in bini house. I shouldn't be acting like this but I can't help it. Maybe I'm just not ready to know whatever she might say.

I arrived late and that's not me. They shoud be angry at me because of it but they show concern, instead. How I love these girls. I hope I can open up with them but I don't want to cause problem. Having conflict with the group is the last thing I want to happen.

So even if I'm dying to be with them, specially with her, I choose to dodge the opportunity. I said I need to go somewhere after the live kahit na sa condo lang naman ako, magkukulong.

I just don't trust myself right now. What if we talk and I can't refrain myself from confessing to her? I don't want to make it more complicated. Okay nalang na ako lang yung nagkakaganito.

I'm driving when my phone rings.

James calling..

"Yes dude?"

'Mikhs! are you free tonight? we're here in our favorite bar! C'mon, we missed you!'

"No, I'm busy, James." I lied.

'This is my advance celebration for my birthday, Mikhs! and besides, you're cousin, Chelsea is here.'

"Okay fine but I'm not drinking alcohol."

'You can say that, but if you ever change your mind, my treat.'

I drove to the bar and saw them on the far corner.

We greeted each other and got to talk about what we've missed as they were drinking non-stop.

"Mikhs!" I saw Chelsea walking towards our table with someone. Oh, she's with Denise.

"Hello cous! Long time no see. and hi Deej." I hug both of them.

"Looking good as ever, Mikhs." Deej said with her normal flirt voice.

I just smiled and we talk about her new song. She actually convincing me to be a part of the mv as her partner but I declined. I know I can do it but this is not the right time. She just made me promise to have a reaction video with her when the mv is available, instead.

They were having fun dancing and we are just catching up.

I am about to excuse myself because I need to go to the restroom when I saw notifications from the bini-beybi GC.

What the hell? A is drinking with the girls?! Why do they allowed her to drink?! She can't even handle one bottle! Last time she tried, she got sick. I am mentally panicking when someone hold my arm.

"Hey, Mikhs? is everything okay?" Chelsea asking me with concern.

Deej and her are looking at me.

"No, all is good. I just need to go somewhere." I said while preparing myself to leave.